guilty
I feel so bad. Suddenly i feel so emotional. To know about my friend's plight. It is not considered a plight as it involves significant arguable content. Thou shall not reveal anything here but sighs, i feel guilty.
Time has flew by. I am 20 soon, looking back i was just merely a primary 6 student. My memories started from Primary 5 and 6. That was when i am defiant. Things were pretty bad in my family bad then. Mum wants me to go to a notorious school with a PSLE aggregate of 233. Big deal. But with that results i can go to far better schools.
Entered into that Sec Sch. History. Made some friends which would stay with me for life. However, a few of them went uncontactable recently. Guessed each of them are busy with their current lives.
Define busy. Everything seemed to be in a rush in Singapore. Traffic doesnt stop for you. Walking on the streets, everyone's brushing past you. To a point when I dont even receive any text msgs which only takes less than 1 min to send from them. Dont point finger at them, me too.
There was a period of time which i totally neglected my friends. Where has they been and what are they doing. During tt period, if i have stayed with my friends thru-out maybe so much things wont have happened.
And now i m graduating soon from poly. from pri sch, sec sch and 1 yr jc to the current 3 yrs poly i m studying now. been thru a few relationships which caused me to heartbreak. But what exactly is heartbreaking and heartwrenching? They are just a descriptive term until you really feel them.
some things, some secrets are hidden inside me... deep deep down. they are like dark shadows which would haunt you now and then. i still have nightmares about them.
i have changed so much compared to then. i like to go home as late as i can and like to go against the rules etc. i dont like to go home too late now. i dont know why, maybe i have grown older and my thinking has changed.
some times i wished that i dont have to wrk and study so that i can have the time to spend with my friends and family. well, fat hopes.
Time has flew by. I am 20 soon, looking back i was just merely a primary 6 student. My memories started from Primary 5 and 6. That was when i am defiant. Things were pretty bad in my family bad then. Mum wants me to go to a notorious school with a PSLE aggregate of 233. Big deal. But with that results i can go to far better schools.
Entered into that Sec Sch. History. Made some friends which would stay with me for life. However, a few of them went uncontactable recently. Guessed each of them are busy with their current lives.
Define busy. Everything seemed to be in a rush in Singapore. Traffic doesnt stop for you. Walking on the streets, everyone's brushing past you. To a point when I dont even receive any text msgs which only takes less than 1 min to send from them. Dont point finger at them, me too.
There was a period of time which i totally neglected my friends. Where has they been and what are they doing. During tt period, if i have stayed with my friends thru-out maybe so much things wont have happened.
And now i m graduating soon from poly. from pri sch, sec sch and 1 yr jc to the current 3 yrs poly i m studying now. been thru a few relationships which caused me to heartbreak. But what exactly is heartbreaking and heartwrenching? They are just a descriptive term until you really feel them.
some things, some secrets are hidden inside me... deep deep down. they are like dark shadows which would haunt you now and then. i still have nightmares about them.
i have changed so much compared to then. i like to go home as late as i can and like to go against the rules etc. i dont like to go home too late now. i dont know why, maybe i have grown older and my thinking has changed.
some times i wished that i dont have to wrk and study so that i can have the time to spend with my friends and family. well, fat hopes.