public kthnxbai
I was sitting here, going down my usual pre-procrastination procrastination to-do list, and then I realized that once upon a time..I HAD A LIVEJOURNAL! And I had completely forgotten about it! I sat and reflected on everything going on in my life to figure out just exactly what to update about ("do they really want to hear about what happened at that one bar?" "would they care that I'm going up to Seattle next weekend?" "Wait, is anyone on my LJ friend's list still even alive??"), and then it hit me: this journal represented a big part of my life, but I outgrew it a long time ago. I've graduated from LJ.
Most of my LJ friends left without a word years ago, and I'm probably writing this to nobody..but I'm a closure kind of girl.
Whenever I get on here, I'm reminded of a shy kid who made a lot of friends by being loud and rowdy on Neopets. Not to brag, but I'll have you know- I did this without having any no-number-named, painted pets...so I got by on pure personality ;) I was around when everyone gained popularity by condemning everyone else on the FC chat..I was even there when we all secretly moved to the JWC. Don't tell me you don't remember this because I won't believe you. I had the best of both worlds online and "IRL".
Then, I started coming into my own in real life, my real self. I've met some incredible people on here, but I'm no longer willing to give everyone only half of me. I'm in my 4th year of college (um. gross?), I have real life struggles and a shitload of real life friends to help me through it. I don't need to be one person to them and come home and be another to you guys. I don't need to tear people down to feel at the top. It used to be that "nobody understood" in real life, but now it's "everyone understands, and if you don't- you're not a part of me & that's okay". I wish this epitome, this moment, on all of you.
Life is heartbreaking, completely frustrating, absolutely laughable, unpredictable, funny, and quirky...and that's what makes it 100% beautiful. So, with this, I throw my LJ cap in the air and walk off that stage (I probably tripped, but who cares?).
Add me on facebook, if you want (don't be shy!).
Let's be friends IRL. :)
Most of my LJ friends left without a word years ago, and I'm probably writing this to nobody..but I'm a closure kind of girl.
Whenever I get on here, I'm reminded of a shy kid who made a lot of friends by being loud and rowdy on Neopets. Not to brag, but I'll have you know- I did this without having any no-number-named, painted pets...so I got by on pure personality ;) I was around when everyone gained popularity by condemning everyone else on the FC chat..I was even there when we all secretly moved to the JWC. Don't tell me you don't remember this because I won't believe you. I had the best of both worlds online and "IRL".
Then, I started coming into my own in real life, my real self. I've met some incredible people on here, but I'm no longer willing to give everyone only half of me. I'm in my 4th year of college (um. gross?), I have real life struggles and a shitload of real life friends to help me through it. I don't need to be one person to them and come home and be another to you guys. I don't need to tear people down to feel at the top. It used to be that "nobody understood" in real life, but now it's "everyone understands, and if you don't- you're not a part of me & that's okay". I wish this epitome, this moment, on all of you.
Life is heartbreaking, completely frustrating, absolutely laughable, unpredictable, funny, and quirky...and that's what makes it 100% beautiful. So, with this, I throw my LJ cap in the air and walk off that stage (I probably tripped, but who cares?).
Add me on facebook, if you want (don't be shy!).
Let's be friends IRL. :)