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Dear , __________
So there go's my last string, the last thing that has kept me sane in these insane times. The one thing that I love more then life it self, My soul mate. He leaves on the 20th to Edmonton and all I can do is support time and Make sure he has every thing he needs. All the times of sitting around for hours watching the Records turn and the smoke billow pot after pot of coffee. I miss you already. But He needs this, He's dying then again so am I.
But as always I'll stay here Treading water Trying my best to keep my head above the surface. I guess I'm like every one else though, just trying to get by. Every one has the same Problem, Same drama.
No ones good at goodbyes, no matter how many times you have done them they will always hurt. That's why I dont say goodbye. Maybe that's why I dont like to get close to any one any more , perhaps that's why I am Flakey Because I Know Eventually every one has to say goodbye. And I Cant. When Kari Left I told her I would come back the next day and never did, Because I could not bare to say goodbye. I Drifted from Kim and every one else because I Know After High school we all would go our own ways and there it would be again , another goodbye.
And now that I got close to max He's leaving... And it hurts.
But I Promased my self I would never stop any one from fullfilling their Dream's.
I Want Nikita ..... I miss her more then she could ever know
So there go's my last string, the last thing that has kept me sane in these insane times. The one thing that I love more then life it self, My soul mate. He leaves on the 20th to Edmonton and all I can do is support time and Make sure he has every thing he needs. All the times of sitting around for hours watching the Records turn and the smoke billow pot after pot of coffee. I miss you already. But He needs this, He's dying then again so am I.
But as always I'll stay here Treading water Trying my best to keep my head above the surface. I guess I'm like every one else though, just trying to get by. Every one has the same Problem, Same drama.
No ones good at goodbyes, no matter how many times you have done them they will always hurt. That's why I dont say goodbye. Maybe that's why I dont like to get close to any one any more , perhaps that's why I am Flakey Because I Know Eventually every one has to say goodbye. And I Cant. When Kari Left I told her I would come back the next day and never did, Because I could not bare to say goodbye. I Drifted from Kim and every one else because I Know After High school we all would go our own ways and there it would be again , another goodbye.
And now that I got close to max He's leaving... And it hurts.
But I Promased my self I would never stop any one from fullfilling their Dream's.
I Want Nikita ..... I miss her more then she could ever know