I'm back...
Well after losing two entries and spending 3 weeks at UM, I have to apologize for abandoning this journal..so sowy about that guys but the good news? I am back! yay! Wow there is so much to tell...
I cannot begin without mentioning something that I talked about in one of those journals that was deleted...
My sis and I were told that on Friday, June 18th, there was going to be a family surprise and to be honest with you we really had no idea of what it could be. To make a long story short, the surprise was that we went to Applebees and my brother paid for all of us (my mom, stepdad, sister, grandmother, and myself). Now to some of you it may sound like a simple dinner, but for those of you who know my brother, I'm sure you are as shocked as I was! My mom told us that he'd been wanting to take us out to dinner ever since he got his new job and she asked him to tell us why he wanted to. To which he responded, "cuz...you're my family...and it really got me thinking... My family is so important to me.. they're the ones who are there by your side from the great times to even those times when your world has come crashing down; without them I don't think I'd be the person I am today. Although we don't necessarily see eye to eye all the time, I am thankful to have them in my life as I am thankful to have all of you who have left footprints in my heart(all my friends..you know who you are! xoxo)... And if I have ever failed to let you guys know how much I love you, I give to you my sincerest apologies..I realize that I may not always be the perfect friend, or that I may not be at your side perhaps when you've needed me the most, and for this I am truly sorry..i love you all and appreciate all the imperfections of the world, all the breakdowns and especially all those times we've gotten back on our feet... It's funny how we take even the smallest things for granted and I appreciate even the rise of the sun..I can say that although I am totally fulfilled, Iam truly satisfied...
A lot of you may have not heard from me between June 26th and July 16th-the reason being that I was at UM for the Summer Scholars Program and let me just say it was honestly one of the best experiences of my life! i must admit, however, that at first I did not want to be there. I was miserable and I was homesick...but I wasn't miserable for long. I finally understood that there is so much to see, so much more to learn that lies outside of the home I am familiar with. And along the way I met some amazing people. To Vinnecia Elliot , my roommate(thanks for always having my back!), and in alphabetical order by last name, Nissa Askins, Leslie Boddie, Katie Butler, Kristina Carrillo(colaprities!), Jaclyn Foster , Brittany Gard, Natalie Howard, Nikki Kotturan, Brittany Lighty, Leann Luna(pop this lol), Vicky Montes, Tatiana Peak, Stephanie Rivera(good luck "changing" lol ), Erica Rogowski,Jienne Torres...thank you guys for always taking care of one another and for always having my back...I will never for as long as I live forget all the great times we had..youguys are just great! To Ted, Christian, Shaylen, and Deveon thanks for all the laughs!!
And the RAs (michelle, liat, sola, and mitra) you guys were our guidance, our friends, and our family away from home, i love you!
I have gained so much from this experience and I have grown as a person...I see things in a different light and its thanks to these wonderful three weeks..I miss you all... Of all the exciting events at UM, there is one that was totally unexpected. It happened on the 10th of July...it was on this day that I could no longer say I am single and that is the fault of Danny (or 'cuba' to some) Fernandez. there was nothing in the world that could take away my smile :) However, the last thing I expected was to fall in love with him and altogether fall in love for the very first time! To some of you it may seem quick, or for any opinion that you may be formulating, to ask you to understand is like asking a deaf man to listen. Love is a feeling so strong, and so overwhelming, that I cannot put it into words. It is just something that you feel; something that takes over you; something that you'll know when it hits you...when you can name every heart beat, you'll know.. danny te quiero and thank you for everything you do! For making my heart race at the mere thought of you, for being smart, caring, for letting me into your life, and for being you! I hope I can one day do for you what you have done for me... I think I have said enough for one night and I truly meant everything I've said... To all : Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die tommorow! Carpe Diem xoxoxo, *Karyna*