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i'm so hurt .
by everyone surrounding me -
i would have NEVER thought that people i care so much about
could be so thoughtless about my feelings ..
and just bluntly mean
i just would never do what has been done to me by my closest of friends ..
maybe i don't need anyone for comfort ?
i mean one person hurt me enough ..
and i needed a shoulder to cry on ..
no shoulder was there , they were out making it worse on my behalf
when i thought i had many shoulders to lean on --
i guess i will just have to learn the game plays
so i can keep up with my feelings and be more cautious next time
because obviously this won't be the last since there have been many to occur
just not as hurtful and haven't hit me as hard as this one
but to all of you ..
know that i love you enough to never EVER hurt you
and make you feel as low as you have done unto me .
because that's just not me .
obviously people don't know the true me because i try to PREVENT people from feeling like this
and all it does in the end is make it hard on myself
so to all my friends .. this is courieleafortier:
i don't try to hurt you , because it's the worst feeling in the world
i don't try to make mistakes , but i do learn from them
i don't try to make people jealous of anything , because there's NOTHING to be jealous about
i don't want anyone to feel left out or betrayed , because i know how it feels
i just want friends that are there for me
when i am in time of need
and just be happy with my life for once ..
girls are mean ..
boys are mean ..
and i'm learning you can't trust many with your feelings ..
guess i'm a pretty slow learner
since it's been done wayyy too frequently
thank you rachel for comforting me , listening to my vents , and understanding my tears .
you don't know how much it's needed and appreciated .
PLEASE
just leave me out of it
i don't want to be apart of any schemes
i want friends that i can talk to and TRUST
but it's obviously too much to ask
so contrary to that ,
just don't bother with me
don't talk about me to ANYONE
don't worry about how i feel and try to put them into your own words
if i don't express my feelings to you , it's because i can't trust you with them
and don't lie about me .
if anyone needs to know anything about me
please , ask ME , i won't lie about myself
don't ask my supposed friends
because they don't know and obviously don't care
i will state the truth .
just leave it be
and let me be
i don't want drama in my life
i have enough of it outside my friends
obviously , not many know me
and don't defend me when others think differently of me
i'm hurt , sad , betrayed , lonely ..
and all i want is to be happy ..
by everyone surrounding me -
i would have NEVER thought that people i care so much about
could be so thoughtless about my feelings ..
and just bluntly mean
i just would never do what has been done to me by my closest of friends ..
maybe i don't need anyone for comfort ?
i mean one person hurt me enough ..
and i needed a shoulder to cry on ..
no shoulder was there , they were out making it worse on my behalf
when i thought i had many shoulders to lean on --
i guess i will just have to learn the game plays
so i can keep up with my feelings and be more cautious next time
because obviously this won't be the last since there have been many to occur
just not as hurtful and haven't hit me as hard as this one
but to all of you ..
know that i love you enough to never EVER hurt you
and make you feel as low as you have done unto me .
because that's just not me .
obviously people don't know the true me because i try to PREVENT people from feeling like this
and all it does in the end is make it hard on myself
so to all my friends .. this is courieleafortier:
i don't try to hurt you , because it's the worst feeling in the world
i don't try to make mistakes , but i do learn from them
i don't try to make people jealous of anything , because there's NOTHING to be jealous about
i don't want anyone to feel left out or betrayed , because i know how it feels
i just want friends that are there for me
when i am in time of need
and just be happy with my life for once ..
girls are mean ..
boys are mean ..
and i'm learning you can't trust many with your feelings ..
guess i'm a pretty slow learner
since it's been done wayyy too frequently
thank you rachel for comforting me , listening to my vents , and understanding my tears .
you don't know how much it's needed and appreciated .
PLEASE
just leave me out of it
i don't want to be apart of any schemes
i want friends that i can talk to and TRUST
but it's obviously too much to ask
so contrary to that ,
just don't bother with me
don't talk about me to ANYONE
don't worry about how i feel and try to put them into your own words
if i don't express my feelings to you , it's because i can't trust you with them
and don't lie about me .
if anyone needs to know anything about me
please , ask ME , i won't lie about myself
don't ask my supposed friends
because they don't know and obviously don't care
i will state the truth .
just leave it be
and let me be
i don't want drama in my life
i have enough of it outside my friends
obviously , not many know me
and don't defend me when others think differently of me
i'm hurt , sad , betrayed , lonely ..
and all i want is to be happy ..