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sometimes you have to sit back and ask yourself... Am i pushing people away? Or is it that i just don't have as much in common with those people as i thought i did? why is it that i feel so lonely and so disconnected from everything. and on the same note why do i make everything about being the best. why can't i just settle for doing my job the best i can and not pushing people away. i think i do push people away. i am short tempered and not even i would want to be my friend.
on the other hand i am unmotivated and am slacking in all of my classes. i need to pick up the ball and do my work. no more going to bed just so i don't have to get things done. i need to stay on top of my game or else i will be suffering later. get things mailed out. do my casebook. get ready for tech week. i wish i felt like i was doing it all for a reason. but would that help. i need support. i need to find the fire within me to get things done. do it. just suck it up and do it.
on the other hand i am unmotivated and am slacking in all of my classes. i need to pick up the ball and do my work. no more going to bed just so i don't have to get things done. i need to stay on top of my game or else i will be suffering later. get things mailed out. do my casebook. get ready for tech week. i wish i felt like i was doing it all for a reason. but would that help. i need support. i need to find the fire within me to get things done. do it. just suck it up and do it.