These hours of the morning...
Always get me thinking instead of sleeping.
And always make me run out of things to do online.
So i figured id post an update. For all the good it'll do.
I, uh... well. Im unemployed, now. Not fun. Keep getting really disheartened when i see that big white space saying "previous employment" and realise i cant fill it. Or when it asks me for references from at least my last 2 jobs. And im like "Yeah... ive only ever had the one job. Couldnt even keep that for longer than 2 months." Not enjoying this =/
... Got my own place. For those that didnt know. Its ok. But i share it with 2 fucking weirdos. I mean, sure, theyre really nice people. And theyre perfectly accomodating etc; but theyre... far from cool. I never thought i'd use this word but "sleazoid" does kinda describe them. Ollie more than Richard. Richard is at least aware that he's socially inept and basically a perv, and sometimes tries not to be. Ollie thinks its fine to be creepy and perverted. And has an air of arrogance which just doesnt work. And he moans all the time. (Though, tbf... that's what im doing atm :P)
But its a nice size house. And in a good place (just behind the central train station) And its affordable (Or, at least was when i was earning) So i dont quite wanna move out. Just dont wanna have to share it with those 2, tbf.
*sigh*
I wish i had more to say... My life is incredibly boring atm. No variety, nothing much to say about it...
Though, there is this girl. Really enjoy being with her. Its... slightly confusing. Not 100% what's going on there. But she seems to share my sentiments. Hoping maybe to get closer..? Despite my irrational (or justified? perhaps?) fear of relationships and tendency to flee to avoid vulnerability, im finding myself really caring for her.
Which is confusing the hell of my head considering Re.
Ack.
Life's a tricky one, aint it?
And always make me run out of things to do online.
So i figured id post an update. For all the good it'll do.
I, uh... well. Im unemployed, now. Not fun. Keep getting really disheartened when i see that big white space saying "previous employment" and realise i cant fill it. Or when it asks me for references from at least my last 2 jobs. And im like "Yeah... ive only ever had the one job. Couldnt even keep that for longer than 2 months." Not enjoying this =/
... Got my own place. For those that didnt know. Its ok. But i share it with 2 fucking weirdos. I mean, sure, theyre really nice people. And theyre perfectly accomodating etc; but theyre... far from cool. I never thought i'd use this word but "sleazoid" does kinda describe them. Ollie more than Richard. Richard is at least aware that he's socially inept and basically a perv, and sometimes tries not to be. Ollie thinks its fine to be creepy and perverted. And has an air of arrogance which just doesnt work. And he moans all the time. (Though, tbf... that's what im doing atm :P)
But its a nice size house. And in a good place (just behind the central train station) And its affordable (Or, at least was when i was earning) So i dont quite wanna move out. Just dont wanna have to share it with those 2, tbf.
*sigh*
I wish i had more to say... My life is incredibly boring atm. No variety, nothing much to say about it...
Though, there is this girl. Really enjoy being with her. Its... slightly confusing. Not 100% what's going on there. But she seems to share my sentiments. Hoping maybe to get closer..? Despite my irrational (or justified? perhaps?) fear of relationships and tendency to flee to avoid vulnerability, im finding myself really caring for her.
Which is confusing the hell of my head considering Re.
Ack.
Life's a tricky one, aint it?