friendship
As much as Natalie says that we will always be best friends i still can't believe it. We will have no classes anymore and she is finding all new friends which will probably become best friends. Don't ever believe that you can have more than one best friend. It never works out that way; someone always ends up getting hurt. Believe me i have been through it in the past. And that is probably the reason i don't try to get friends.
Oh God i wish my life could be different. I wish i wasn't so shy. I wish i could actually find a boy who likes me and i like him. I want so much in my life to have people who love me; and i have; but i am just in this little habbit of pushing them away just when we start to get close.
Like Eric for example, he and i started to get close and we had one fight and i ended it. I can't handle it. And now Eric and i will not ever be the same. But i guess that is just the way life is. I am just so sick of myself hurting people and pushing them away; but i think it is starting to happen again. I am sorry to everyone i have hurt.
Oh God i wish my life could be different. I wish i wasn't so shy. I wish i could actually find a boy who likes me and i like him. I want so much in my life to have people who love me; and i have; but i am just in this little habbit of pushing them away just when we start to get close.
Like Eric for example, he and i started to get close and we had one fight and i ended it. I can't handle it. And now Eric and i will not ever be the same. But i guess that is just the way life is. I am just so sick of myself hurting people and pushing them away; but i think it is starting to happen again. I am sorry to everyone i have hurt.