don't worry about the small stuff (it's all small stuff)
"all i am is who i am"
better it be on good terms than bad terms
i dislike bad terms but sometimes it has to happen that way to learn a lesson - and although it may not appear that i have learned anything or am learning anything - i assure you i am. it matters not to me what i have to prove to anyone - proving yourself to another person is simply making that person happy for their own special purposes. what's truly important (possibly selfish?) is that you prove to yourself that you are worth it and that you can make a life for yourself that works for you. if you manage to keep friends while you are in the process of ever changing - then that's really beautiful. if you can consistently accept the other even in their faults - that is god like.
what's important to me is that i keep going, that i keep making it, that i make something for myself and for my love. to prove to myself that i am worth everything and anything - that i can do whatever i put my mind to. i cannot live up to anyone else's standards but my own.
it's taken an incredible amount of strength to not cut or use drugs. my two main crutches for survival - gone. i still don't know what to do without them. i shake uncontrollably. i cry more than i have in over a year. i'm not worried though because something really great is going to come from this. if you are there with me when or as it's happening, then thank you. if not - no worries. you are loved, you will always be loved, and i understand.
better it be on good terms than bad terms
i dislike bad terms but sometimes it has to happen that way to learn a lesson - and although it may not appear that i have learned anything or am learning anything - i assure you i am. it matters not to me what i have to prove to anyone - proving yourself to another person is simply making that person happy for their own special purposes. what's truly important (possibly selfish?) is that you prove to yourself that you are worth it and that you can make a life for yourself that works for you. if you manage to keep friends while you are in the process of ever changing - then that's really beautiful. if you can consistently accept the other even in their faults - that is god like.
what's important to me is that i keep going, that i keep making it, that i make something for myself and for my love. to prove to myself that i am worth everything and anything - that i can do whatever i put my mind to. i cannot live up to anyone else's standards but my own.
it's taken an incredible amount of strength to not cut or use drugs. my two main crutches for survival - gone. i still don't know what to do without them. i shake uncontrollably. i cry more than i have in over a year. i'm not worried though because something really great is going to come from this. if you are there with me when or as it's happening, then thank you. if not - no worries. you are loved, you will always be loved, and i understand.