life changes
When I moved back to the Bay Area, my wife told me, she was saddened that I hadn't been riding for so long. She wanted to help me get back up on another cycle. I spent time cleaning her with steel wool. While doing so, i thought about my life since moving back.
I've been with my wife for almost 12 years now. Kelsey joined our relationship 5 years ago forming our now Triad. There have definetly been ups and downs. At first we had to get used to sharing all intimate knowledge with eachother and still find a way to still feel special. The dynamics between my wife and my own became something else. I grieved for the loss of our old routine that was the two of us. It evolved into more.
A change happened in our lives from feeling afraid that there wasn't enough, to allowing the love to flow differently so that we could accept what came. It allows the love in, as opposed to the destructive nature that fear can cause. It was difficult and slow going, and our dedication pulled us through it.
Life has recently become very busy. Fear of not having enough time with eachother has settled in a bit. We have also come a very long way. My wife is going to medical school and I hardly see her all week. K's schedule permits one or two days to hangout. I think we're all feeling it. The love is there and I know we have pulled through this.
There's some good things coming. I just gotta hold my head up and keep moving forward.
As for Blu (a short version of Blue Eyes, what I named my cycle) For this moment, I scrubbed some rust spots off because I can control that. No time constraint, no scheduling conflicts. She waits for me, always waiting for my touch.