Espanola
I drove up to Espanola today to see an old friend her new man...well, he has been in her life for two years. When I arrived I was grateful my beater truck had made it. I think it may need some MAJOR work very soon but I'll deal with that next week. I got here and was so glad to see her, I found that I still felt so comfortable around her. We were such a major part of eachothers lives in our formative years, we have some similar habits that I thought would be long gone.
I contacted her three days ago and told her i needed some support and would like to come see her and her mom. My mom was too far away to drive to without getting stranded in the middle of Arizona or some weird place. Her mom was like my second mom growing up, my parents would beat me and I'd go to my fiances house and talk to her mom about how I felt...she had grown up in a time when physical abuse was still an acceptable form of punishment. She really did become my second mom when things were not good and my world was devastated. Amanda made plans to pick up her mom and to drive up to Chama for a crafts fair. While I was there I picked up a few gifts for my girls at home. I hung out with Mom and Amanda and ate fair corn dogs and crushed ice cones. They got cherry and I got sour cherry. We went to a rodeo and it just felt sooo comfortable. We talked about our lives and caught up on high school friends whereabouts and shared information on folks we really wanted to find but lost track of. Being around people who had supported me through such rough times (car accidents, family abuse, etc) made me feel real, like I remembered something I had lost long ago. They reminded me of things I had forgotten I had done in high school and we laughed and picked on each other like we could easily write a roast without thinking about it.
I remember when she first asked me to marry her and I was so young, strange that she just seems like an old friend now. I was glad to see her happy with jon. I feel good today. I am tired and ate today. I believe I'll put on something comfortable and tend to myself before we play some guitar hero. AWESOME!!! I go back to Albuquerque and have plans for next week that make me feel good. I know I will get to sleep tonight and wake up refreshed knowing and feeling alive.
I contacted her three days ago and told her i needed some support and would like to come see her and her mom. My mom was too far away to drive to without getting stranded in the middle of Arizona or some weird place. Her mom was like my second mom growing up, my parents would beat me and I'd go to my fiances house and talk to her mom about how I felt...she had grown up in a time when physical abuse was still an acceptable form of punishment. She really did become my second mom when things were not good and my world was devastated. Amanda made plans to pick up her mom and to drive up to Chama for a crafts fair. While I was there I picked up a few gifts for my girls at home. I hung out with Mom and Amanda and ate fair corn dogs and crushed ice cones. They got cherry and I got sour cherry. We went to a rodeo and it just felt sooo comfortable. We talked about our lives and caught up on high school friends whereabouts and shared information on folks we really wanted to find but lost track of. Being around people who had supported me through such rough times (car accidents, family abuse, etc) made me feel real, like I remembered something I had lost long ago. They reminded me of things I had forgotten I had done in high school and we laughed and picked on each other like we could easily write a roast without thinking about it.
I remember when she first asked me to marry her and I was so young, strange that she just seems like an old friend now. I was glad to see her happy with jon. I feel good today. I am tired and ate today. I believe I'll put on something comfortable and tend to myself before we play some guitar hero. AWESOME!!! I go back to Albuquerque and have plans for next week that make me feel good. I know I will get to sleep tonight and wake up refreshed knowing and feeling alive.