nj
Ok...back in NJ.
All sortsa stuff been goin on.
I was at home all last week. It was cool, I got to see my younger sisters (the two little ones anyway, not either of the Meghans...) a bunch. I hung out with Michelle a lot too. We are pretty close again...but in a different sense.
Lets see...I really actually can't remember, all the days are a blur. I have been occasionally e-mailing the girl Angela, who I met at Ale n Wich before I went back to PA. I think I'm gonna call her and see if she wants to do something, but has to be pretty low budget, since I'm broke as usual. And I e-mailed and heard back from and then e-mailed again the girl that I met at i-bar, way back before Christmas when I went out with Becky and Houman and all them. I don't think anything's gonna come of that, which is all for the better I guess, although she does sell adult toys for a living, so I mean maybe it would be fun to hang out a little.
I got a bunch of "the problem" taken care of. Things are much better now. So yeh, Monday I went to the dentist and got a bunch of stuff done. I came home all sore, and layed around for a while then finally went to get Michelle and we blazed and hung out for a bit, then I went home.
Tuesday, I missed my dentist's appointment by a half an hour, so I just came back home and sat around. I made dinner for my family and then everyone turned out to have shit to do so it ended up just being Rosemary, Mom, Michelle and me. Michelle and I went out afterwards to do something but I can't remember what.
Wednesday, I was home all day sleepin and then played some video games (rough life). Michelle called and then came by, and we went to Doc Hollidays for some beers, and apparently they were having some pajama party which Michelle and I (thank goodness) weren't dressed for. So we hung out there and drank for a while, and then I think didn't do anything after that.
Thursday Michelle had choir pratice, and we went out afterwards. Can't remember what we did.
Friday I hung out at home (just to keep with the trend) and then that evening, Michelle called and said we should go out with her dad and his g/f to this bar on the west shore to see this band that plays there that Michelle and her dad both really like. So we went out, but the table her dad had reserved was only big enough for he and his g/f and their two friends, so Michelle and I wandered back to the back of the bar and watched the band from there and chilled for a bit. Jeff came thru and a little after, Scott, so we all chilled and I got on a game of pool with Jeff, playin against these two older guys in their 50s that were there with their wives. This one drunk wife was all hangin on me, hittin on me, grabbin my ass, etc. It was pretty funny. Then some other older woman I guess saw the first lady hitting on me, so she must have been inspired, and when I was streched out across the table tryin to make a shot, she ran her foot up the inside of my leg and left it against my upper inner thigh for a few seconds while I turned around in shock. It was funny. Later on in the evening, Danny and his girlfriend showed up with a few of her g/fs that I recognized from other parties and all...there's one that I think is hot in a wierd way, but she's a snob and doesn't really talk to me. Huh, go figure. So they bounced after a drink because it wasn't really their scene, so then it was just Danny, Scott, Jeff, Michelle and I for the rest of the night. After we left the bar, Michelle took me to her friend's house so she could pick up a bag, cuz we were supposed to be going to Phila the next day to see her friend Adele and then stay that night and come home sunday morning for the super bowl. So we went, blazed a little, then I went home...Michelle was to call me the next morning to let me know what time we were leaving- the plan was about 10-11 am.
Saturday, I called Michelle at 10 to see what time she was coming to pick me up. She said "Well, uh, I gotta tell you something..." and proceeded to tell me that Adele had just had some "crisis" that she just wanted the girls to be down for the weekend...just sounded like bullshit to me. But whatever, so after planning for a week to go to Phila, I didn't. I ended up stayin around the house that day, and in the afternoon mom and dad took me and the girls to evergreen for seafood and sushi. So that was fun. Then I decided that evening that I'd go to G-man since I hadn't been there in a while. I got there around 8, and just sat at the bar drinkin by myself, talkin to Jeff, the bartender I used to bullshit with when I used to live in PA...so eventually, he goes off to wait on other people. A minute later, I hear someone say "Justin" and I look to my left, and there's Adam, a.k.a. Cutty, this kid I used to work with @ pizza hut back in high school. We talked for a while...apparently, he went into the navy, then after 4 years was done, and lived in Hawaii with his rich girlfriend who's going to law school. Then they had a fight, so he came back to PA, and he's been there for a few months, but he worked shit out with his woman, so he's going back to Hawaii in a few weeks. So as he and I are sitting there talkin, somebody comes walkin up, and I didn't look up, because I didn't think anything of it, but it ended up being Wes, so that was cool. He and I sat there for about an hour just catchin up and drinkin. He's a very smart guy, very insightful. So yeh, we sat there and drank, and then out of nowhere, Jen Peters and Kristen walked up (they'd been coming to meet up with Adam) and said hi. I was so suprised to see either of them...it was crazy. Kristen got pregnant in high school and married Chris Thompson, who is brothers with Matt Thompson, who was the uncle (but everyone always just said cousin) of Josh Snyder, the big dumb wrestler who was my best friend in high school. So Kristen apparently had another baby, then they got divorced. She looks very good for two kids. She and I always had a good friendship in high school, so we talked for a while...I was trying to juggle talking to Kristen, Jen, Adam, and Wes, when I saw the other Jen (friends with Maricar) walk in with her friend Heather. So I told all the first four people to hang on, and I went to say hi to Jen. I talked to her for a few minutes, and then Todd and Jeff (friends of mine and wes's) walked in. So at this point I was ecstatic, because it was all my favorite people from the last 8 years of Hershey (ok maybe that's an exaggeration, but it was still very cool) in one place. So Kristen went off dancing, and for the rest of the night, it was so crowded that we didn't talk much cuz it was too loud and too hard to even get within ear shot of eachother. Jen and Adam sat by themselves flirting, and Wes sat at the bar swamped by beautiful women, which is usually the case. Jen had to leave after a bit because Heather got flagged and then kicked out. Which left Todd and Jeff and I...well Jeff went off with some girl, so then it was just Todd and I. About 15 minutes before last call, Kristen comes up to say something, I can't remember what, but she said it right in front of this knockout girl in a skirt and killer boots, that I'd been checkin out all night. So Kristen says whatever, and walks back to where she had been, and I hear someone say my name. I turn around, and it's this hot girl. I looked at her funny cuz I wasn't sure if she was talkin to me or not, but she said "that's your name, right?" so indeed it was me. She asked if Kristen was my g/f, and I said no. She said "what's wrong with your friend?" referring to Todd, who always looks like he's at a funeral. I said nothing, he's bored...then I introduced him to her (Shelby was her name) and her friend who he'd been checking out for a while. So somehow I ended up buying Shelby, Todd, the other girl, and myself a beer before last call. Todd and I were scheming how to leave the bar with them (well, Todd was just asking me what the plan was, because I don't know that he's ever really talked to a girl he didn't know, much less leave the bar with one) and I just said to follow my lead (pretending that I had far superior skills than that which I actually posess. So we were walking towards the door with them, and all of us kept getting stopped by different people to chat, and eventually it got to them walking out the door and Todd and I still halfway down the bar. So we ran to catch up, and Shelby was walking across the parking lot. I yelled something about playa hatin and not sayin bye...she turned around and we talked for another minute, and said she hoped she'd see me there next weekend. So Todd and I got in my car, and she and her friends got in their car. Todd said something about "I knew nothin was gonna happen," which made me wanna prove something- I'm not sure what- so I get out of the car, run up to their car, and knock on shelby's window. She rolls it down and I said something about "any chance of us doin somethin now" and she said to meet them at Cocoa Grill, cuz they were goin for food. So Todd and I went, sure that they were setting us up and that they wouldn't be there, but they were. Except the three of them were sitting with two guys, so I felt like a chump. But I decided fuck it, we'd go sit down, and stick to our guns. (I'm not sure where all this confidence came from, but it was fun.) So we sat there, and Shelby and I just kept looking at eachother and grinning across the table, sorta being flirty. She kept rolling her eyes at everything these two other guys said, and eventually they left, so it was back to the beginning- Shelby and her two friends, and Todd and I. We all sat there and talked for a while longer, and then they decided they were gonna bounce. We all left together, and in the parking lot, all these guys kept banging on the restaurant windows trying to get her attention, but she kept looking at me. It was cool. I guess it doesn't take much to impress me. So she asked for my number, and I gave it to her. She put it in her phone, and said she was gonna be at Chick's next Saturday night, and said she wanted us to come too. So we walked to the car, and I turned and yelled over my shoulder "you sure you wanna go home?" at which she giggled and said she'd see us soon. Todd and I went back to my car, I drove him to his car, and we went home. She'd called the house I guess, cuz her number was on the caller ID, so I called back and left a funny message about calling so late at night, and that I hoped I'd see her next weekend. And that was that.
Sunday, I slept for a while, and then called Michelle. She was back from Phila, so she and I drove around and blazed for a while, and then went over to her friend's house for the superbowl. Watched the superbowl, and had a pretty uneventful night until towards the end of the evening, when Michelle kept trying to pick fights with me (jokingly.) I kept asking her to stop, because people can't tell that we're kidding, and think we're really fighting, but she didn't stop, and just kept insisting that people can tell. So finally I got really upset and just tried to stay away from her. When we left, neither of us said anything the whole way home, until eventually she started speeding really bad, and I asked her not to drive angry. She said she'd take me home and I wouldn't have to worry about her driving. I asked what was wrong, and she said "well I dunno, you tell me," blah blah blah. So it came out that I was upset that she hadn't listened to me when I asked her to stop, and tried to disprove that I felt uncomfortable. She and I went round and round for a while, and she said something about how when I make her uncomfortable in front of her friends, that she doesn't say anything, she just tries to let it roll off her back. I told her that's fine if thats how she wants to deal with it, but then don't throw it back in my face months later, and don't expect me to be a mind-reader, and how we've had this arguement a million times, about her not saying what's on her mind or how she feels, or whatever, because she's always too worried about other peoples feelings. I told her that's nice of her but she can't do that and then have all this pent-up anger and all...She then said how "I was right, she's wrong, how it always is," and how I'm a better debater, and all this crap. I told her it's not about that, and eventually we got everything worked out and chilled for a bit and went home happy.
Monday, I didn't do much of anything, just hung out all day. That evening, Michelle thought that I'd come back to NJ, so I went to her dad's house to suprise her. She was suprised, and we decided we'd go do something. She said come in while she got ready. Her dad was upstairs, but came downstairs while she was still getting ready. I said hi to him, and he didn't say anything. I said hi again, and he said "hey." I asked how he was doin, and he didn't say anything. I always thought he didn't like me. So Michelle comes down, and we left, went to Kinko's to get her letter of resignation printed, and then stopped by her mom's house to get some stuff. As we were leaving, her mom waived her back in the house. I sat in the car for about 10 minutes, and then she finally came back out, looking very upset. She told me that her dad ahd called, and her dad doesn't like me, and he was mad at her because she brought me over (it was a suprise, she didn't even know I was still in town) and she was being disrespectful, and cursed at her a bunch and called me a bunch of curse names and all. I told her I knew he didn't like me, I could always tell, and why did she insist all those times (when I asked about it) that he DID like me, and not to worry about it and I asked why she'd taken me out with her dad so many times if she knew he didn't like me...she said she thought he'd see what a good guy I am and get over it. I asked why he didn't like me, and she said that months and months ago, when I'd done a corporate identity for her uncle bobby's restaurant, that when I asked about the procedures for copyrighting, and who's copyright it'd be, that he had to get a lawyer to write up a contract between bobby and I, and it had cost him $1200. I asked why she hadn't told me this before, and that if she had, things wouldn't be this way, I could have resolved things with Bobby before things got this out of hand. She was really upset, and I was slightly upset with her for not having told me a long time ago, and for having taken me out with her dad all those times because it put me in a bad position...but mostly I just felt bad for her because she was so upset...which made me feel guilty, because even though it was a misunderstanding and not intentional, I still feel responsible in some wierd way. I dunno...so she told me all this, and then was too upset and just wanted to go home, so I went home too. She said she'd calle me the next day because I wanted bobby's e-mail address so I could write him and try and get all this stuff worked out.
Tuesday, I didn't do much of anything...in the evening, I called michelle's mom's house to see if she was home, but she wasn't, so I went off to try and find her (her cell phone battery died and she left her charger in Phila) but she wasn't at Jeff n Scotts or any of the bars, so I decided to drive past her dad's house, even though I didn't expect her to be there. Her car was out front, and the spot on the street right in front her her house was open, so I pulled in but didn't get out of the car or anything...I didn't see her dad's truck so I was gonna try and go up and knock on the door, but then I saw someone walking through the living room and look towards my car, so I drove away. I circled the block in case it was her and she'd seen me, but when I drove by again, I saw her dad in the kitchen on the phone, so I didn't stop, I just drove by. I went back home, got the cell phone, and went to the bar. I sat there for a bit and drank by myself, and then I saw a few of the waitresses I used to be friends with, and we all talked for a while. Then I bounced.
Today I got up early to say bye to my parents and little sisters, before I came back up to NJ. I did some laundry and stole some food from the pantry, and got on the road. I got back here, and fixed the computer, and Dena made comments because she'd had to pay the gas bill without me cuz I wasn't here. Oh well. She'll live. I'll give her money for it.
So I'm back in NJ. I dunno, already I'm just as overwhelmed as I was when I left two weeks ago, because I have $300 worth of bills coming up in the next two weeks. Damn it. I dunno...I'm talking to Becky on IM. She's sick. And I haven't talked to Susan in over a week...haven't seen her online in a while. I hope things are ok...I gotta dig up her number and call her. Anyway I'll finish this later, because I've typed enough for one evening.
All sortsa stuff been goin on.
I was at home all last week. It was cool, I got to see my younger sisters (the two little ones anyway, not either of the Meghans...) a bunch. I hung out with Michelle a lot too. We are pretty close again...but in a different sense.
Lets see...I really actually can't remember, all the days are a blur. I have been occasionally e-mailing the girl Angela, who I met at Ale n Wich before I went back to PA. I think I'm gonna call her and see if she wants to do something, but has to be pretty low budget, since I'm broke as usual. And I e-mailed and heard back from and then e-mailed again the girl that I met at i-bar, way back before Christmas when I went out with Becky and Houman and all them. I don't think anything's gonna come of that, which is all for the better I guess, although she does sell adult toys for a living, so I mean maybe it would be fun to hang out a little.
I got a bunch of "the problem" taken care of. Things are much better now. So yeh, Monday I went to the dentist and got a bunch of stuff done. I came home all sore, and layed around for a while then finally went to get Michelle and we blazed and hung out for a bit, then I went home.
Tuesday, I missed my dentist's appointment by a half an hour, so I just came back home and sat around. I made dinner for my family and then everyone turned out to have shit to do so it ended up just being Rosemary, Mom, Michelle and me. Michelle and I went out afterwards to do something but I can't remember what.
Wednesday, I was home all day sleepin and then played some video games (rough life). Michelle called and then came by, and we went to Doc Hollidays for some beers, and apparently they were having some pajama party which Michelle and I (thank goodness) weren't dressed for. So we hung out there and drank for a while, and then I think didn't do anything after that.
Thursday Michelle had choir pratice, and we went out afterwards. Can't remember what we did.
Friday I hung out at home (just to keep with the trend) and then that evening, Michelle called and said we should go out with her dad and his g/f to this bar on the west shore to see this band that plays there that Michelle and her dad both really like. So we went out, but the table her dad had reserved was only big enough for he and his g/f and their two friends, so Michelle and I wandered back to the back of the bar and watched the band from there and chilled for a bit. Jeff came thru and a little after, Scott, so we all chilled and I got on a game of pool with Jeff, playin against these two older guys in their 50s that were there with their wives. This one drunk wife was all hangin on me, hittin on me, grabbin my ass, etc. It was pretty funny. Then some other older woman I guess saw the first lady hitting on me, so she must have been inspired, and when I was streched out across the table tryin to make a shot, she ran her foot up the inside of my leg and left it against my upper inner thigh for a few seconds while I turned around in shock. It was funny. Later on in the evening, Danny and his girlfriend showed up with a few of her g/fs that I recognized from other parties and all...there's one that I think is hot in a wierd way, but she's a snob and doesn't really talk to me. Huh, go figure. So they bounced after a drink because it wasn't really their scene, so then it was just Danny, Scott, Jeff, Michelle and I for the rest of the night. After we left the bar, Michelle took me to her friend's house so she could pick up a bag, cuz we were supposed to be going to Phila the next day to see her friend Adele and then stay that night and come home sunday morning for the super bowl. So we went, blazed a little, then I went home...Michelle was to call me the next morning to let me know what time we were leaving- the plan was about 10-11 am.
Saturday, I called Michelle at 10 to see what time she was coming to pick me up. She said "Well, uh, I gotta tell you something..." and proceeded to tell me that Adele had just had some "crisis" that she just wanted the girls to be down for the weekend...just sounded like bullshit to me. But whatever, so after planning for a week to go to Phila, I didn't. I ended up stayin around the house that day, and in the afternoon mom and dad took me and the girls to evergreen for seafood and sushi. So that was fun. Then I decided that evening that I'd go to G-man since I hadn't been there in a while. I got there around 8, and just sat at the bar drinkin by myself, talkin to Jeff, the bartender I used to bullshit with when I used to live in PA...so eventually, he goes off to wait on other people. A minute later, I hear someone say "Justin" and I look to my left, and there's Adam, a.k.a. Cutty, this kid I used to work with @ pizza hut back in high school. We talked for a while...apparently, he went into the navy, then after 4 years was done, and lived in Hawaii with his rich girlfriend who's going to law school. Then they had a fight, so he came back to PA, and he's been there for a few months, but he worked shit out with his woman, so he's going back to Hawaii in a few weeks. So as he and I are sitting there talkin, somebody comes walkin up, and I didn't look up, because I didn't think anything of it, but it ended up being Wes, so that was cool. He and I sat there for about an hour just catchin up and drinkin. He's a very smart guy, very insightful. So yeh, we sat there and drank, and then out of nowhere, Jen Peters and Kristen walked up (they'd been coming to meet up with Adam) and said hi. I was so suprised to see either of them...it was crazy. Kristen got pregnant in high school and married Chris Thompson, who is brothers with Matt Thompson, who was the uncle (but everyone always just said cousin) of Josh Snyder, the big dumb wrestler who was my best friend in high school. So Kristen apparently had another baby, then they got divorced. She looks very good for two kids. She and I always had a good friendship in high school, so we talked for a while...I was trying to juggle talking to Kristen, Jen, Adam, and Wes, when I saw the other Jen (friends with Maricar) walk in with her friend Heather. So I told all the first four people to hang on, and I went to say hi to Jen. I talked to her for a few minutes, and then Todd and Jeff (friends of mine and wes's) walked in. So at this point I was ecstatic, because it was all my favorite people from the last 8 years of Hershey (ok maybe that's an exaggeration, but it was still very cool) in one place. So Kristen went off dancing, and for the rest of the night, it was so crowded that we didn't talk much cuz it was too loud and too hard to even get within ear shot of eachother. Jen and Adam sat by themselves flirting, and Wes sat at the bar swamped by beautiful women, which is usually the case. Jen had to leave after a bit because Heather got flagged and then kicked out. Which left Todd and Jeff and I...well Jeff went off with some girl, so then it was just Todd and I. About 15 minutes before last call, Kristen comes up to say something, I can't remember what, but she said it right in front of this knockout girl in a skirt and killer boots, that I'd been checkin out all night. So Kristen says whatever, and walks back to where she had been, and I hear someone say my name. I turn around, and it's this hot girl. I looked at her funny cuz I wasn't sure if she was talkin to me or not, but she said "that's your name, right?" so indeed it was me. She asked if Kristen was my g/f, and I said no. She said "what's wrong with your friend?" referring to Todd, who always looks like he's at a funeral. I said nothing, he's bored...then I introduced him to her (Shelby was her name) and her friend who he'd been checking out for a while. So somehow I ended up buying Shelby, Todd, the other girl, and myself a beer before last call. Todd and I were scheming how to leave the bar with them (well, Todd was just asking me what the plan was, because I don't know that he's ever really talked to a girl he didn't know, much less leave the bar with one) and I just said to follow my lead (pretending that I had far superior skills than that which I actually posess. So we were walking towards the door with them, and all of us kept getting stopped by different people to chat, and eventually it got to them walking out the door and Todd and I still halfway down the bar. So we ran to catch up, and Shelby was walking across the parking lot. I yelled something about playa hatin and not sayin bye...she turned around and we talked for another minute, and said she hoped she'd see me there next weekend. So Todd and I got in my car, and she and her friends got in their car. Todd said something about "I knew nothin was gonna happen," which made me wanna prove something- I'm not sure what- so I get out of the car, run up to their car, and knock on shelby's window. She rolls it down and I said something about "any chance of us doin somethin now" and she said to meet them at Cocoa Grill, cuz they were goin for food. So Todd and I went, sure that they were setting us up and that they wouldn't be there, but they were. Except the three of them were sitting with two guys, so I felt like a chump. But I decided fuck it, we'd go sit down, and stick to our guns. (I'm not sure where all this confidence came from, but it was fun.) So we sat there, and Shelby and I just kept looking at eachother and grinning across the table, sorta being flirty. She kept rolling her eyes at everything these two other guys said, and eventually they left, so it was back to the beginning- Shelby and her two friends, and Todd and I. We all sat there and talked for a while longer, and then they decided they were gonna bounce. We all left together, and in the parking lot, all these guys kept banging on the restaurant windows trying to get her attention, but she kept looking at me. It was cool. I guess it doesn't take much to impress me. So she asked for my number, and I gave it to her. She put it in her phone, and said she was gonna be at Chick's next Saturday night, and said she wanted us to come too. So we walked to the car, and I turned and yelled over my shoulder "you sure you wanna go home?" at which she giggled and said she'd see us soon. Todd and I went back to my car, I drove him to his car, and we went home. She'd called the house I guess, cuz her number was on the caller ID, so I called back and left a funny message about calling so late at night, and that I hoped I'd see her next weekend. And that was that.
Sunday, I slept for a while, and then called Michelle. She was back from Phila, so she and I drove around and blazed for a while, and then went over to her friend's house for the superbowl. Watched the superbowl, and had a pretty uneventful night until towards the end of the evening, when Michelle kept trying to pick fights with me (jokingly.) I kept asking her to stop, because people can't tell that we're kidding, and think we're really fighting, but she didn't stop, and just kept insisting that people can tell. So finally I got really upset and just tried to stay away from her. When we left, neither of us said anything the whole way home, until eventually she started speeding really bad, and I asked her not to drive angry. She said she'd take me home and I wouldn't have to worry about her driving. I asked what was wrong, and she said "well I dunno, you tell me," blah blah blah. So it came out that I was upset that she hadn't listened to me when I asked her to stop, and tried to disprove that I felt uncomfortable. She and I went round and round for a while, and she said something about how when I make her uncomfortable in front of her friends, that she doesn't say anything, she just tries to let it roll off her back. I told her that's fine if thats how she wants to deal with it, but then don't throw it back in my face months later, and don't expect me to be a mind-reader, and how we've had this arguement a million times, about her not saying what's on her mind or how she feels, or whatever, because she's always too worried about other peoples feelings. I told her that's nice of her but she can't do that and then have all this pent-up anger and all...She then said how "I was right, she's wrong, how it always is," and how I'm a better debater, and all this crap. I told her it's not about that, and eventually we got everything worked out and chilled for a bit and went home happy.
Monday, I didn't do much of anything, just hung out all day. That evening, Michelle thought that I'd come back to NJ, so I went to her dad's house to suprise her. She was suprised, and we decided we'd go do something. She said come in while she got ready. Her dad was upstairs, but came downstairs while she was still getting ready. I said hi to him, and he didn't say anything. I said hi again, and he said "hey." I asked how he was doin, and he didn't say anything. I always thought he didn't like me. So Michelle comes down, and we left, went to Kinko's to get her letter of resignation printed, and then stopped by her mom's house to get some stuff. As we were leaving, her mom waived her back in the house. I sat in the car for about 10 minutes, and then she finally came back out, looking very upset. She told me that her dad ahd called, and her dad doesn't like me, and he was mad at her because she brought me over (it was a suprise, she didn't even know I was still in town) and she was being disrespectful, and cursed at her a bunch and called me a bunch of curse names and all. I told her I knew he didn't like me, I could always tell, and why did she insist all those times (when I asked about it) that he DID like me, and not to worry about it and I asked why she'd taken me out with her dad so many times if she knew he didn't like me...she said she thought he'd see what a good guy I am and get over it. I asked why he didn't like me, and she said that months and months ago, when I'd done a corporate identity for her uncle bobby's restaurant, that when I asked about the procedures for copyrighting, and who's copyright it'd be, that he had to get a lawyer to write up a contract between bobby and I, and it had cost him $1200. I asked why she hadn't told me this before, and that if she had, things wouldn't be this way, I could have resolved things with Bobby before things got this out of hand. She was really upset, and I was slightly upset with her for not having told me a long time ago, and for having taken me out with her dad all those times because it put me in a bad position...but mostly I just felt bad for her because she was so upset...which made me feel guilty, because even though it was a misunderstanding and not intentional, I still feel responsible in some wierd way. I dunno...so she told me all this, and then was too upset and just wanted to go home, so I went home too. She said she'd calle me the next day because I wanted bobby's e-mail address so I could write him and try and get all this stuff worked out.
Tuesday, I didn't do much of anything...in the evening, I called michelle's mom's house to see if she was home, but she wasn't, so I went off to try and find her (her cell phone battery died and she left her charger in Phila) but she wasn't at Jeff n Scotts or any of the bars, so I decided to drive past her dad's house, even though I didn't expect her to be there. Her car was out front, and the spot on the street right in front her her house was open, so I pulled in but didn't get out of the car or anything...I didn't see her dad's truck so I was gonna try and go up and knock on the door, but then I saw someone walking through the living room and look towards my car, so I drove away. I circled the block in case it was her and she'd seen me, but when I drove by again, I saw her dad in the kitchen on the phone, so I didn't stop, I just drove by. I went back home, got the cell phone, and went to the bar. I sat there for a bit and drank by myself, and then I saw a few of the waitresses I used to be friends with, and we all talked for a while. Then I bounced.
Today I got up early to say bye to my parents and little sisters, before I came back up to NJ. I did some laundry and stole some food from the pantry, and got on the road. I got back here, and fixed the computer, and Dena made comments because she'd had to pay the gas bill without me cuz I wasn't here. Oh well. She'll live. I'll give her money for it.
So I'm back in NJ. I dunno, already I'm just as overwhelmed as I was when I left two weeks ago, because I have $300 worth of bills coming up in the next two weeks. Damn it. I dunno...I'm talking to Becky on IM. She's sick. And I haven't talked to Susan in over a week...haven't seen her online in a while. I hope things are ok...I gotta dig up her number and call her. Anyway I'll finish this later, because I've typed enough for one evening.