I miss music.

[khaosisuponus]

I miss music and I miss performing. I'm sitting here listening to Wicked and it makes me miss choir. I want to sit with a group of singers and learn a song. I have no illusions about making a career as a singer, a well-known singer any way. If I could just get people excited about music. Maybe I could teach it, maybe give private lessons. I could work really hard on sight-reading and become a studio singer. Maybe this is all just a pipe dream but I've done music since 3rd grade and it just seems that I'm not really ready to give up that part of my life. Why should I have to give it up anyway?

I just have to make myself happy but it seems just one thing is going to make that happen. I don't think it really works that way for anyone. We are all told we need to pick one thing we want to be for the day we are born. I don't want to be just one thing.

I guess I have to do what needs to be done but I just don't know what that is right now. I guess time will tell.