Who Knew.......
Who knew this friends with benefits shit was hard!!! LOL, I did....low key!! See that's what Will and I came up with when I came back from Georgia!! Mostly Will but anyway the first time I saw him after whoa how many months somethin like four!! I wanted to run into his arms but ya know I couldn't show it!! Everything was cool, I was happy to see everybody!! Will and I did what we couldn't wait to do...lol, ya know!! But Saturday was a diferent story, I went to summer jam. Which was nothin I thought it would be but anyhow I ended up havin a good time. Anyhow that's a whole different story....so I saw Will with Raberta, at first I thought I would have a fit!! But surprisingly I didn't, who knows why that was!! Maybe because I didn't think she was good looking or it was just one of those days or maybe because I didn't watch or have to see it for a long time or I just didn't care. I don't really know why. So on his birthday I got the opportunity to spend somethin like 8 hours watchin him with Darshae. Which at first didn't get to me but as time went on it did!!! Oh shit, I was back to the place where jealousy took over. After she left we had this discussion about what was bothering me and I finally realized that things truly changed and I'm not it anymore on any level. The difference is that I'm not upset like I used to be!!! More about this later