This is my coming out party.
A lot has been going on in my life. I think my world has changed a lot in the last couple months. It scares me so much to move on to the next stage of my life. I really want to slink away from the world and just figure everything out on my own time schedule. I have a dream home and life in my head, but it doesn't involve anything here. I need to go find myself in this mess that is my head.
I graduate in 2 weeks. I really can't wait to be finished with school but I am so scared for the rest of my life. I haven't even looked for jobs. I'm going to lifeguard again for the summer. I didn't want to but I the vet wasn't going to give me 40 hours a week, and Farash wanted me to be headguard. I'll still work at the vet at night a couple days a week.
I'm trying to sit down and figure out what I really want, and what things in my life I don't need. Its not an easy process but I'm slowly figuring out some stuff. I signed the lease with the boys for another year but I don't know if I want to stay here. I don't want to feel bad about not cleaning up after myself. I don't want to feel like I have to reach certain expectations. I want my own bed, my own room, my own schedule, my own life. I want to be selfish and only think about wait I want for my future and not let anybody else change that.
I've started to make some new friends and get back in touch with a few old.
I don't know if I make this any longer I know people won't even attempt to read it. (I know, I do it too)
I graduate in 2 weeks. I really can't wait to be finished with school but I am so scared for the rest of my life. I haven't even looked for jobs. I'm going to lifeguard again for the summer. I didn't want to but I the vet wasn't going to give me 40 hours a week, and Farash wanted me to be headguard. I'll still work at the vet at night a couple days a week.
I'm trying to sit down and figure out what I really want, and what things in my life I don't need. Its not an easy process but I'm slowly figuring out some stuff. I signed the lease with the boys for another year but I don't know if I want to stay here. I don't want to feel bad about not cleaning up after myself. I don't want to feel like I have to reach certain expectations. I want my own bed, my own room, my own schedule, my own life. I want to be selfish and only think about wait I want for my future and not let anybody else change that.
I've started to make some new friends and get back in touch with a few old.
I don't know if I make this any longer I know people won't even attempt to read it. (I know, I do it too)