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Sooo....
My uncle is coming back today :)
I got somethings off my chest last night that needed to be gotten off.. I'm sorry if it hurt.
I've been moaping around my house for nearly a week now.. I'm done. I think I'm going to try to go out and have fun tonight, unless my uncle wants me to hang out with them. I know for a fact that I am going to go out tomorrow to have a ton of fun. Sunday I want to do art.. not depressed art, but with someone else. Gilly perhaps? body paint? eh? eh? lol.
I'm looking foward to next week. I don't know why yet.. I just am.
Edit:
I've been laying down in a recliner in the living room for a couple of hours because i'm having very painful chest pain [anxiety perhaps?] My aunt comes in and at 2:15 called my uncle who flew from Scotland in at two... "Did you pick up my medicine?" wtf hes been here 15 minutes.. maybe! So somehow it gets brought up that my other uncle isn't there to pick him up yet, I told them I was supposed to pick him up and I'm guessing he flew back in the same gate he came out of.. my aunt distorts my comment once again. She said, "Well Kori told him to go to gate D, maybe next time tell someone who is a little more responsible!"
ONCE AGAIN!!! WHAT THE FUCK!
So of course out of shock i yelled, "shut the fuck up, he didnt even tell me!!!" she got so pissed and went on this rant of how I will respect her blah blah blah, never to tell her to shut up again.. bull shit on two parts. I DONT respect her.. not even a little bit at all. I only stay here because I know my uncle needs me to help her out so much, he is the one i have respect for. To be married to this old rigged bitch for 32 years. I do everything for her, for instance, I woke up this morning to I need you to make me coffee now. I didnt even have time to catch a breath before she starts naming off 5 or 6 more things for me to do. Its like this all day. Second off if she thinks i'm never going to say shut up again, she is sadly mistaken. I have a right to say whatever the fuck I want to say. She doesn't understand that I am capable of making it on my own, I've done it before.. Without their car, without their money, without the "emotional" support. I am not letting this bullshit happen to me much longer. I won't do it. I also vow to never let myself end up in a sittuation where I feel like I owe someone so much. Never fucking agian... I don't care that it's family. Depending on people is a fucking joke.
Someone clear out some space for a new room mate because i'm going downtown to get a job monday. I'm going to talk to my uncle tonight, maybe tomorrow, but I will not stress out over her anymore.
My uncle is coming back today :)
I got somethings off my chest last night that needed to be gotten off.. I'm sorry if it hurt.
I've been moaping around my house for nearly a week now.. I'm done. I think I'm going to try to go out and have fun tonight, unless my uncle wants me to hang out with them. I know for a fact that I am going to go out tomorrow to have a ton of fun. Sunday I want to do art.. not depressed art, but with someone else. Gilly perhaps? body paint? eh? eh? lol.
I'm looking foward to next week. I don't know why yet.. I just am.
Edit:
I've been laying down in a recliner in the living room for a couple of hours because i'm having very painful chest pain [anxiety perhaps?] My aunt comes in and at 2:15 called my uncle who flew from Scotland in at two... "Did you pick up my medicine?" wtf hes been here 15 minutes.. maybe! So somehow it gets brought up that my other uncle isn't there to pick him up yet, I told them I was supposed to pick him up and I'm guessing he flew back in the same gate he came out of.. my aunt distorts my comment once again. She said, "Well Kori told him to go to gate D, maybe next time tell someone who is a little more responsible!"
ONCE AGAIN!!! WHAT THE FUCK!
So of course out of shock i yelled, "shut the fuck up, he didnt even tell me!!!" she got so pissed and went on this rant of how I will respect her blah blah blah, never to tell her to shut up again.. bull shit on two parts. I DONT respect her.. not even a little bit at all. I only stay here because I know my uncle needs me to help her out so much, he is the one i have respect for. To be married to this old rigged bitch for 32 years. I do everything for her, for instance, I woke up this morning to I need you to make me coffee now. I didnt even have time to catch a breath before she starts naming off 5 or 6 more things for me to do. Its like this all day. Second off if she thinks i'm never going to say shut up again, she is sadly mistaken. I have a right to say whatever the fuck I want to say. She doesn't understand that I am capable of making it on my own, I've done it before.. Without their car, without their money, without the "emotional" support. I am not letting this bullshit happen to me much longer. I won't do it. I also vow to never let myself end up in a sittuation where I feel like I owe someone so much. Never fucking agian... I don't care that it's family. Depending on people is a fucking joke.
Someone clear out some space for a new room mate because i'm going downtown to get a job monday. I'm going to talk to my uncle tonight, maybe tomorrow, but I will not stress out over her anymore.