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OH MY GOD.
I found out today that my totally non-sexual friend Alice has a boyfriend. She has NEVER had a boyfriend before. And not only did she tell me that she's now dating this guy who's a lot older than her that I've never met before, but apparently they had a serious make out session last Saturday. I know many people wouldn't think anything of this, but for me this was huge. The image I have of Alice and the image she gave me when she told me she made out with a guy do NOT go together at all. They COLLIDE. There's really no way I can explain it. I know I'm a bit of a prude myself- I was very sheltered as a child, but I know that a lot, okay, pretty much all young people get it on. I mean, I don't bat an eye when I see something completely outrageous and scandalous on TV or read or hear about it. I have a little difficulty when I hear people my age or younger talking about it like it's nothing, and I have to remind myself that I'm the one who's different, not them. But I still understand it. But today I find out that my close friend, who seriously never talks about wanting to go out with some guy or any of that kind of talk, and as far as I know has never even kissed a guy, is now dating this... this Alex guy! I couldn't believe it! I was totally blown away! It's like everything I thought I understood or knew has been twisted upside down! Like everything I know is a lie!!! WHAT?!?! I just completely freaked out when she told me. I wasn't mad, though, just.... completely caught off guard. I was NOT expecting that at all. It just doesn't fit into my image of her. She's not a shy bookworm, or one of those people who are completely obsessed with school/work. She's just a totally normal, crazy kind of person. And it's not like she was the kind of person who was innocent or afraid to talk about sex or drugs or promiscuous things either. She just isn't one of those girls who talks a lot about getting a boyfriend or who they like. So when she told me... I'm repeating myself. But that's just how my mind was handling it when all this happened! She picked a really bad day to drop this on me. I couldn't focus at all for the next 2 hours after she told me. Eventually I blocked it out so I could get some work done and not freak out over it in my mind. But the images she left me with kept poping up in my mind. At first when she told me she just said "we made out." But when I asked her about it, she said it was funny because she wore high heel boots, so bla bla bla her height, bla bla bla his height, bla bla bla first date, what to where, bla bla bla because she "almost hit his crotch with them like three times." ......... She almost hit his crotch with her shoes? Three times?... I was struggling with the mental picture of how that could happen (because mine was just of the two of them neatly sitting on the couch calmly making out *with their feet on the floor*), so I asked her exactly how their making out lead her to worry about.... And then she told me. She told me that, and I quote, they were "seriously making out, on the couch, ON THE FLOOR..." !!!!! And that's when my image of Alice completely shattered. And my world turned upside down.
I really am very sheltered. I know it and I admit it. But I'm not a total prude. It's just that the closer it is to me, the more I freak out. It's not my fault! I'm sheltered! I feel like I have to defend myself. But honestly, I'm not completely a prude. I don't think you have to be married before you have sex, I..... Aw geez I ran out of reasons already.
Well I'm super busy today so I can't sit here trying to defend myself to the internet and all who are on it. Maybe I should just make this a private post... Hm. Well anyway...
IT SNOWED!!! :D 2nd time this year! Yes!
I found out today that my totally non-sexual friend Alice has a boyfriend. She has NEVER had a boyfriend before. And not only did she tell me that she's now dating this guy who's a lot older than her that I've never met before, but apparently they had a serious make out session last Saturday. I know many people wouldn't think anything of this, but for me this was huge. The image I have of Alice and the image she gave me when she told me she made out with a guy do NOT go together at all. They COLLIDE. There's really no way I can explain it. I know I'm a bit of a prude myself- I was very sheltered as a child, but I know that a lot, okay, pretty much all young people get it on. I mean, I don't bat an eye when I see something completely outrageous and scandalous on TV or read or hear about it. I have a little difficulty when I hear people my age or younger talking about it like it's nothing, and I have to remind myself that I'm the one who's different, not them. But I still understand it. But today I find out that my close friend, who seriously never talks about wanting to go out with some guy or any of that kind of talk, and as far as I know has never even kissed a guy, is now dating this... this Alex guy! I couldn't believe it! I was totally blown away! It's like everything I thought I understood or knew has been twisted upside down! Like everything I know is a lie!!! WHAT?!?! I just completely freaked out when she told me. I wasn't mad, though, just.... completely caught off guard. I was NOT expecting that at all. It just doesn't fit into my image of her. She's not a shy bookworm, or one of those people who are completely obsessed with school/work. She's just a totally normal, crazy kind of person. And it's not like she was the kind of person who was innocent or afraid to talk about sex or drugs or promiscuous things either. She just isn't one of those girls who talks a lot about getting a boyfriend or who they like. So when she told me... I'm repeating myself. But that's just how my mind was handling it when all this happened! She picked a really bad day to drop this on me. I couldn't focus at all for the next 2 hours after she told me. Eventually I blocked it out so I could get some work done and not freak out over it in my mind. But the images she left me with kept poping up in my mind. At first when she told me she just said "we made out." But when I asked her about it, she said it was funny because she wore high heel boots, so bla bla bla her height, bla bla bla his height, bla bla bla first date, what to where, bla bla bla because she "almost hit his crotch with them like three times." ......... She almost hit his crotch with her shoes? Three times?... I was struggling with the mental picture of how that could happen (because mine was just of the two of them neatly sitting on the couch calmly making out *with their feet on the floor*), so I asked her exactly how their making out lead her to worry about.... And then she told me. She told me that, and I quote, they were "seriously making out, on the couch, ON THE FLOOR..." !!!!! And that's when my image of Alice completely shattered. And my world turned upside down.
I really am very sheltered. I know it and I admit it. But I'm not a total prude. It's just that the closer it is to me, the more I freak out. It's not my fault! I'm sheltered! I feel like I have to defend myself. But honestly, I'm not completely a prude. I don't think you have to be married before you have sex, I..... Aw geez I ran out of reasons already.
Well I'm super busy today so I can't sit here trying to defend myself to the internet and all who are on it. Maybe I should just make this a private post... Hm. Well anyway...
IT SNOWED!!! :D 2nd time this year! Yes!