Re: big bang, seungri-centric, #3 (1/2)
anonymous
October 4 2011, 02:48:40 UTC
by the time they're back in japan with daesung for the first time, seungri can't even remember the last time they ate a meal together, all five of them. both jiyong and seunghyun arrive late; jiyong looks too skinny and too pale and seunghyun looks too tired. youngbae looks too stressed and daesung looks too sad. seungri tries not to think about what he looks like.
all of them seem to have lost the ability to hold a conversation, and this time, seungri's the one cracking the awkward jokes to break the tension. it doesn't really work.
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youngbae yells. seungri's in the next room and he stares at his own reflection in the mirror, wondering if he's started to hallucinate, because youngbae doesn't yell. he never yells.
except that today, he does.
seungri stands rooted to the spot, listening to the string of swearing and frustrations coming from the next room. he has no idea who they're directed at, but he hopes it's not daesung. it takes minutes for everything to go quiet again, before there's a slam of a door and the sound of rushed footsteps.
youngbae doesn't come back to the apartment at all for the next week. when he finally does come back, his curses mix in with jiyong and seunghyun's until seungri can't tell which one of them is having the worst day, the worst week, the worst month.
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seungri is alone in the apartment for three blissfully peaceful and quiet nights. it's the best he has slept in months.
he finds himself wishing that the others won't come back, and hates himself for it. but only a little.
Re: big bang, seungri-centric, #3 (1/2)
anonymous
October 4 2011, 02:52:53 UTC
omg anon, this is so heartwrenching but i absolutely love this. i think you captured everything about this situation so well that it hurts my heart a bit ;___;
Re: big bang, seungri-centric, #3 (1/2)
anonymous
October 4 2011, 02:58:38 UTC
♥ it vaguely hurt to write, ngl. ;______; i blame whatever anon that posted the whole "big bang in 2009" thing for this, sobs, i couldn't get it out of my head again.
Re: big bang, seungri-centric, #3 (1/2)
anonymous
October 4 2011, 03:25:14 UTC
anon who wrote about the bb in 2009 situ and i loved this. you just got everything about that time right and it made me want to go back and watch vids of them in 2010 to reassure myself that it was alright by then.
it's weird because one of the few other fics i've read about the rift between daesung and the rest of the boys also has seungri trying to bridge the gap.
Re: big bang, seungri-centric, #3 (1/2)
anonymous
October 4 2011, 03:36:00 UTC
ahh, thank you! and thank you for the inspiration, however depressing it is, lol. idk, something about that whole thread really struck a chord with me, maybe cos it's so easy to see big bang as pretty much the prototype of a healthy, happy group and being reminded that they've had their issues too has a lot of impact. idek what i'm saying anymore.
i guess it's cos they were actually doing stuff together so it kinda seemed like the year was all... gdybtop vs daeri? that's probably how my mind decided to see it, anyway.
Re: big bang, seungri-centric, #3 (1/2)
anonymous
October 4 2011, 03:48:24 UTC
we should both really be thanking the anon who asked for the gdybtop meta and then asked me to elaborate about their horrible 2009. no, i understand. maybe it's because they went on hiatus for 2 years, but i've seen a lot of people say bb have had a problem-free 5 years.
yeah, that makes complete sense and i actually like the daeri angle because seungri is the most emotional of them all and wears his heart on his sleeve. i actually just re-read that fic and i remember thinking then as well that daeri would not have been my first choice because top and daesung seem to be a package deal always and top seemed to be the only one daesung was responding to at that time. but both of you made it work.
all of them seem to have lost the ability to hold a conversation, and this time, seungri's the one cracking the awkward jokes to break the tension. it doesn't really work.
-
youngbae yells. seungri's in the next room and he stares at his own reflection in the mirror, wondering if he's started to hallucinate, because youngbae doesn't yell. he never yells.
except that today, he does.
seungri stands rooted to the spot, listening to the string of swearing and frustrations coming from the next room. he has no idea who they're directed at, but he hopes it's not daesung. it takes minutes for everything to go quiet again, before there's a slam of a door and the sound of rushed footsteps.
youngbae doesn't come back to the apartment at all for the next week. when he finally does come back, his curses mix in with jiyong and seunghyun's until seungri can't tell which one of them is having the worst day, the worst week, the worst month.
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seungri is alone in the apartment for three blissfully peaceful and quiet nights. it's the best he has slept in months.
he finds himself wishing that the others won't come back, and hates himself for it. but only a little.
maybe this is what disbandment feels like.
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this is perfect and so very relevant to the 2009 bb thread above. it's so angsty, but a good angsty. loved it. write more please.
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it's weird because one of the few other fics i've read about the rift between daesung and the rest of the boys also has seungri trying to bridge the gap.
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i guess it's cos they were actually doing stuff together so it kinda seemed like the year was all... gdybtop vs daeri? that's probably how my mind decided to see it, anyway.
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yeah, that makes complete sense and i actually like the daeri angle because seungri is the most emotional of them all and wears his heart on his sleeve. i actually just re-read that fic and i remember thinking then as well that daeri would not have been my first choice because top and daesung seem to be a package deal always and top seemed to be the only one daesung was responding to at that time. but both of you made it work.
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