lornly.
ding. very lornly.
~
"To warm her up, to make her laugh, I tell Marla about the woman in Dear Abby who married a handsome successful mortician and on their wedding night, he made her soak in a tub of ice water until her skin was freezing to the touch, and then he made her be in bed completely still while he had intercourse with her cold inert body. The funny thing is this woman had done this as a newlywed, and gone on to do it for the next ten years of marriage and now whe was writing to Dear Abby to ask if Abby thought it meant something."
~
"I DO THIS THING WHERE I THINK I'M REAL SICK,
BUT I WON'T GO TO THE DOCTOR TO FIND OUT ABOUT IT.
CAUSE THEY MAKE YOU LIE REAL STILL
IN A REAL SMALL SPACE
AND THEN THEY CHART UP YOUR INSIDES
AND PUT EM ON DISPLAY.
THEY'D SEE ALL OF IT, ALL OF ME, ALL OF IT, ALL OF ME."
~
fuck you.
(i bet you can't even tell me that much.)
~
sometimes i want to throw things at the television, screaming, "everything is a metaphor!" and i want to run naked through the night sky and i want to be a smiling skeleton and i want to punch you in the face and say, "that one's for me!" and i want to be loved.
and sometimes i want for nothing.
somtimes you are a hole in my heart that aches, and sometimes you are the mug that warms my hands, and sometimes you are the evil black oil villain from fern gully.
you made me feel stupid, and i don't trust you anymore.
you are the pit of dispair
(in the sense that you heal only to break more thoroughly)
but i can't imagine the future without you,
you have infiltrated everything so deeply.
~
"To warm her up, to make her laugh, I tell Marla about the woman in Dear Abby who married a handsome successful mortician and on their wedding night, he made her soak in a tub of ice water until her skin was freezing to the touch, and then he made her be in bed completely still while he had intercourse with her cold inert body. The funny thing is this woman had done this as a newlywed, and gone on to do it for the next ten years of marriage and now whe was writing to Dear Abby to ask if Abby thought it meant something."
~
"I DO THIS THING WHERE I THINK I'M REAL SICK,
BUT I WON'T GO TO THE DOCTOR TO FIND OUT ABOUT IT.
CAUSE THEY MAKE YOU LIE REAL STILL
IN A REAL SMALL SPACE
AND THEN THEY CHART UP YOUR INSIDES
AND PUT EM ON DISPLAY.
THEY'D SEE ALL OF IT, ALL OF ME, ALL OF IT, ALL OF ME."
~
fuck you.
(i bet you can't even tell me that much.)
~
sometimes i want to throw things at the television, screaming, "everything is a metaphor!" and i want to run naked through the night sky and i want to be a smiling skeleton and i want to punch you in the face and say, "that one's for me!" and i want to be loved.
and sometimes i want for nothing.
somtimes you are a hole in my heart that aches, and sometimes you are the mug that warms my hands, and sometimes you are the evil black oil villain from fern gully.
you made me feel stupid, and i don't trust you anymore.
you are the pit of dispair
(in the sense that you heal only to break more thoroughly)
but i can't imagine the future without you,
you have infiltrated everything so deeply.