Throug the Window (a tron flower's epilogue)
Title: Throug the Window (a tron flower's epilogue)
Pairing: On(jong)Key [Key POV]
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst, romance
Summary: Why? I
can't feel anything when I touch my bare feet in the snow?. This
world is only good in that its existence is wanted. The world is really
enjoying toying with me.
I’m just nobody’s want
Despite my small hands clutching her thick coat. She went without looking though. And after so long I waited, he never returned to me.
Ah, I understand. Snow did not colder than being discarded.
"Are you still here? Do not you glad? "You come up with your small hand-stained chocolate candy.
My voice is lost when it is. It's crying out for me. I can only see you smile at me And you're holding me recklessly.
"Alright! Stop crying okay? You can have my share of chocolate! "You're stuffing a chocolate bunny into my hands. Forcing my hand to cramming chocolate into my mouth. It was the first time I 'feel' something else.
"How it feels?"
"Sweet-s .." you smiled so close in front of me. At that time you bring the spring for me.
"Good! Well done your mother leave you here, Kibum! So you can get lots of sweets! And I can see you! "For some reason, I did not sad when you mentioned my mother who has abandoned me.
"I JinKi! Because I was this orphanage residents probably since I was born, so I do not have the family name! You'll get enough love here! ".
You've only got to teach the taste of love. You do not teach me how to get it.
"Kibum! Kibum! Let's guess! I was adopted by a family! Look! They are the Lee family. Starting tomorrow, my name became Lee JinKi. Cool is not it? ". You ran at me with a grin on your face. Bringing a photograph in your hands.
"You're going?"
"Of course! Tomorrow they'll pick me! "You laughed happily. Eventually you find a family that you dream of. But what about me?.
"Hehe ~ take it easy, I'll come play with you!" Your tiny hand is still holding me back then. But then, you never go back.
Why does everybody throw me?.
Apparently, love in a place that's not enough JinKi!. Previously, the place was full of love because you're there. When you go, I go back just to be an outcast.
I saw you there. Sobbed. You cried hugging a photograph. In the photo was an old woman smiling happily. All I know, the woman in the photograph is the last family to you. Sad. You're back to being yourself again.
How do you calm me first?. I also ever felt such pain and there you were there to treat me. I do not know how you treat me that time!. Your face wet with tears. Your weeping bitterly. I know, a chocolate candy will not be able to treat your sick of this.
I want to love you.
I guess along with someone who also loves you, will be good. But apparently, the love that you taught him, in contrast with the love that you taught me. At first, I thought this one would be good together. I'll still be able to see you, at least. But he is the gate that I was entering another world.
I put a sprig of anemone in a corner of the window. The only beauty that I can see in this room. The room is only dark for my eyes.
"Hahhhhhh__hnnhhhhh! Ahhhhh you do not disturb him hhnnaaahhh Kibum? - " this man voice was hoarse with passionate tone. He warns me with his own ways. To not to touch you.
He loves you. He wants you. He can not get you. Just like me. Why are you so out of reach?.
Every time his hands touched me. Each time his tongue touched my skin. Each time the wound-twists are etched in my body. It is like ice that cools the burning feeling of the white pills that he forced on me. This pill’s intoxicate. My body is always boiling. shortly after the pill’s entering my body. Mingled with my blood cells. Killing my brain. Forcing out my soul. And this man, more forcing my soul to get out. Made me familiar with the pain. But he is a place that can make me stay near you.
He says, this pill will make me less lonely. he gave me a lot of drugs and said that it would make me less pain. That it will all help me. I'm lost.
This is torture. It's disgusting. It's dirty. I think we are different at first. But more often the hand touched my skin, I feel more and more just like him. I thought my love for you is better than his. but when I only hear the gasps, moans and heavy breathing out of my mouth, when he did this to me. Apparently I'm just as disgusting as him.
I prayed. I hold my breath. Closing my eyes. Hope this pain will go away. Looking for my soul. Hope it does not leave me. Leaving me with only my body. my dirty and disgusting body.
BHUKKK
"Ah! - what a dream!__" Whose hands?. Ah this your arm. Is really sloppy. You're holding me too tightly JinKi!.
Table clock shows 3:30 am. How can this be? I did not know. Now I even be here. Your room? I'm still not used to you at my side. This rooms are warm and messy. This is different than I imagined. I think you're sleeping in a room that is more colorful. From the writings that you share with the world with beautiful and dazzling color of words.
"I'm thirsty," My feet are unfamiliar with marble floors. It was cold. I can not imagine before I could enter this house, walking in this hallway and the room in this house. The house where you have to share the laughter with your family.
Ahhhhhh, here where you stringing those words?. Words that can bring people get lost in the world of their imagination. It was ... I want to touch all the objects in this room. Objects that accompany you. This table, this red laptop, these papers, purple walls, the lights of this strange, this window -
What is this I see by your window?. You can see me and Jjong from here?.
I can only silently look at the ugly window on the other side of this window. In my eyes such as repeated disgusting images of me and Jjong that may be visible to you from here. My body was shaking, as if reminded of the pain that I received in that room.
What have you ever saw? Did you see all the terrible things from here? What do you ---
My eyes cold, dark, quiet. Even I did not touch anything, I know this gentle hands is your hands covering my eyes.
"I did not see anything from this window, nor in that window," you whispered in my ear. remove your hand from my eyes. You hold my hand, it was very cold and soft.
"I just saw this beautiful hand to replaces a sprig of anemone every morning!" You say so, kissing my hand. I do not know where I live?. You took me to the world that I never knew. With all this gentle.
"Do not go from me Kibum!. You do not know how I got confused when you were not there in my arms when I woke up. I think I'm losing you again ... " you're hugging me, you smell warm. I think you gave me a kind of medicine as Jjon had done g. Because I was drunk in your arms.
Although now you're hugging me. though now I'm Able to touch you. Though now we are together. I still do not know what should I do?. Hey JinKi!.
"Falling in love to me Kibum! And stay beside me! ".
I still do not know what is this feeling?, the tears tracing paths down my cheeks. Tears of relief. Tears of joy.
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heuuuheuuuuu~
i don't know how to call this one...epilogue?
hope you can enjoy (understand) this one...kkkkkk (sorry)
sorry for anything~
all are wellcome~
*bows hug*