Letters To God (My lov, My kiss, My heart)
Title : Letters To God (My love, My kiss, My Heart)
Pairing : OnKey (ofcourse) [JinKi’s POV]
Rating : pg
Genre : romance bit angsty
Summary : when all prayers are answered by a different path. in the end, all the requests granted. JinKi is his last patient.
A/N : okay, this is the result of me and my boredom. sorry. I thought, this is like a continuation of my previous story, this one Love Disease . it's just that previously it het.
Dear God,
Can you give me a bonus?. come on, I almost managed it?. I'd be a good boy so far. I do not even smoke!. I accept the fate that you gave to me. so give me a bonus!. at least in my last moments. I want my love! huh?.
JinKi
The white ceiling again. I'm tired of the same scene every time I wake up. White ceiling, white bed, white covers and now, plus thin tubes convolute my body. It's even sunny day and I couldn’t move an inch.
This is my room. My house. Yes, I made it all white. I think this will make me get used to it later. Later when I dead. People say, if you dead, you will live in the world that are all white, right?. But I'm getting bored. Every time I wake from my dreams, I still see this ceiling again. Which means I'm still alive.
I felt my way to sleep must be a bit different this time. Evident from the addition of this thin tubes in my body. Ahhh, I and the God’s excess Leave on me.
"You ... already awake ?!--"
Wait, am I already dead?. Last I remember, there’s no angel in my white house?. Black orbs, pretty nose, cherry lips, glowy white skin. This figure is unusual with my white wall background.
"_I'm sorry! __ errmm Okay, I'll replace the infusion then! "His trembling hands away from my hand. Don’t!. Beautiful fingers.
"___ Kibum? __ "I don’t want to release this beautiful trembling fingers.
"Jin-M-Mr.Lee JinKi _I __ I have to change your infusion __!"
I remember! Of course. My heart felt a sudden partying when I managed to hold one finger of his remains in my hand, I know. He was my doctor. My love. The reason for this smile on my face. Final bonus from god for me. Since I’m a good son.
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Dear God,
About thebonus that you gave to me, he’s too spectacularly beautiful!. now what? I'm also a human being who have the passion you know! so, I want my kiss. OK?
ps. Do not blame me! This is your fault! give me a bonus like him~.
JinKi
By today, nearly half a year I enjoying the wonderful bonus from god. Twice a week he came to me. The doctor was. My Kibum.
"Mr. Lee! Mr. Lee! "He comes. "Ahh, you're here!" I don’t remember since when, he always comes with a worried face like that?. He even like doesn’t have any expression before. Well, before my last sleep I guess.
He always came up with the fast pace, calling me. And look at me anxiously. And I would always smile automatically when I see his him like that. of course I'm smiling. His face is beautiful with a worried expression as compared with the first moment we met again. There was no expression at all in his face.
"Okay, let's start checking you," he's a straight like this. He always immediately removing the goods from his medical bag after finding me. Examination. While it's nice when he touched to touch me when the examination. Skinship. But he always went after it.
"Can we do it later?"
"What are you saying? Now Mr.Lee! It should not be wasting time! "He was a cold one.
"See! You came at the right time doctor! The sun was going down! "I don’t want to give up of course. How? He was very fond of sunsets. His hobby is standing on my wooden balcony watching the red sky reflected off the sea.
What did I say~!? he really likes sunset. He always seemed amazed by this God’s paintings in the evening. And I always amazed by this God’s creature besides me. The God's creature since 17 years ago that I always ask in my letters to god. The creature of god that doesn’t even remember if he had promised me 17 years ago.
"Hey! Doctor! You can see a small wooden swing in there? "I interrupt, my finger directs him toward my special place.
He only nodded slightly to follow the direction of my finger. He doesn’t remember.
"__ Once, long ago! 17 years ago I met a beautiful little boy. He was a boy from my family’s doctor. " His view was not separated from the old wooden swing that toyed by the sea breeze. "__ it's the first time I met him _ but he suddenly told me to out of the swing, because he wanted to climb the swing __ " Kibum you remember? He furrowed his brow. "_ Of course I refused! I was sad that time. That's when I overheard my mother crying and yelling that I could not recover _that I will die soon__ but he actually came and forced me out of my swing! Though I was crying and yelling at him if I was going to die! And told him not to disturb me _ " already remember? "__ But in the end I let him ride my swing though . You know why? ___ He promised me _ he said-"
"_ I will cure you! I'm a genius! You just have to live and let me ride that swing ! __ I will heal you later! __ " He whispered. You remember Kibum.
Sweet. For a moment, I saw the beautiful face of a boy 17 years ago replace his cold face in front of me. It's so fast. I don’t even know what I just did. My lips just feel a wonderful sweet taste. So, now what I have to do? Seeing his startled expression. I think I've just kissed His lips. well, just smiled. He-he-what should I do?.
This is really good. I like experiencing euphoria, when who knows when or What?. I felt him touching His red lips on mine. He closed his eyes, his lips playing around with my lips. It's beautiful. My eyes closed automatically. It's soft. My lips, my mouth, my tongue respond to him wanting more. It's warm. My blood flows up into my face. How lucky he didn’t do blood pressure checks at this time, if he doing that, I bet my blood pressure rise abnormaly at this time. My fingers seemed want to participate to feel my lips happiness, His hair is smooth, His soft neck, His smooth and beautiful skin __ sore! pain!.
I feel, my euphoria ended. I broke the kiss. I immediately ran to the sink. When the sweet taste disappears and I feel fishy, when my whole body feels sore and hot. Why do this have to come now?.
"__ Don’t swallow it! _ Kibum! Okhok _-oukhok_ " I cried. I looked at Him. He just silent. He still stood on the balcony with a bloody lip. My blood. My foolish blood. "_oukhok-Oukhok-hmpkh __ hurry wash your mouth Kibum-“.
"_ Stupid! _Your disease ... not contagious! _ " He said quietly.
"I _know __okhok-okhok _" why this blood isn’t going to stop? "I know this is _not contagious! _ But this is dirty! My blood is dirty!. How can I make you dirty? ".
"Hey!--"
This fool! Instead, he was still standing there not helping me nor even clean him self.
"__ JinKi! __ "
"Come on Kibum! I start getting sick! We have to clean you first so you can take care of me, " This will not be good, if he remained silent like that.
"I'm not dirty!"
"_ not you, but-"
"Your blood is also not dirty,"
It started to burn me. Where is my medication?. Ah, I must clean-Kibum first.
"Where’s my aspirin?"
"_ You should not take aspirin any more! _ your drugs is in my bag, in a brown bottle __ "
"Ah, Okay!" Brown bottle - brown bottle - brown bottle.
"You may only take two tablets!"
"Okay-_hpmpkh oukhok __ hahhhh __hahhhhh" Okay, my breath has begun to be irregular. And Kibum still standing there.
"Do not hold your cough!"
"Okay!_hmpkh-oukhok __" if I do not hold, then the blood out again.
"_ Hey! ___Let's get married! "
"Okay!---" Married - married - married __________ “OUKHOK! What?!!” What he'd just said?.
"Let's get married! Mr. Lee JinKi! "
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this is so long. I do not know will be long like this. I'm sure it's not too long, but LJ does not allow me to post this in one post. o,o
so here's Letter To God part 2