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Gah. So I have these two job offers. Target wants me to come on as a department manager. It's not guaranteed full-time, but I'd generally be getting 38-40 hours a week with overtime available. They usually start out at $10 an hour, but because they really liked me in the interviews and I have a lot of retail experience, they'll start me out at $12 an hour, which is roughly $25,000 a year. Basically I'd be in charge of men's clothing and shoes, and I'd have a team working under me.
The other job is with a small electronic supply store. It's independently owned and has a small staff. They're very laid back and people-oriented, one of my friends works there and that's how I got the offer. The manager loved me in the interview and really wants me to come onboard. However, because it's a small company, he was only able to offer me $7 or $8 an hour at first. I told him about the offer I got from Target and he's doing what he can to match it. He says he can give me full time plus benefits, and start me at $9 or maybe $10 if the owner approves. I could also make conditional commission and there may be chances for overtime.
I really don't know which one to go with. Yes, Target pays better (about $100 a week more), but it's a big corporation and I'm not much for corporate America. The electronic store is laid back and I'd actually have a voice there, plus the opportunity to learn a lot about electronics and possibly pursue a career of that nature. But at Target I'd be a boss, I'd be starting off at a higher position. The electronic store would be a lot more work, which kind of appeals to me because I'm a hard worker, but Target seems like kind of an easy ride for good money. I'm completely torn.
I feel really shitty because the pay is such a major factor here. I've always had somewhat strong convictions and thought that money can't buy happiness and all that jazz.... but then this comes along. It's not even that I think I'd be unhappy at Target, if it were a job I thought I'd hate there'd be no contest, or if the electronic store were a comic shop or something like that I'd easily take it. But I think I could be happy at either job. The major thing is that Target would pay me $100 a week more, which is $400 a month, $5000 a year, meaning that if I took that job, I could afford to move out. If I take the electronic store job, I'm losing my rent money. I'd have to stay living at my dad's house in fucking Wilmington for who knows how long.
I think what's really holding me back from Target is the idea of selling my soul. I guess I've always lived by these punk rock standards, which sounds completely silly when I type it out but that's the best way I could think to describe it. I don't ever want to grow up and give up these ideals, but I know that I should be thinking of my future and stability and all that. But does that compromise the person I've always prided myself on being? I'm all about pride and convictions and staying true to myself (I even have "To Thine Own Self Be True" tattooed across my wrists), so by taking a job with a big corporation where I'm just a number because it'll pay me more money, am I compromising any of that? I don't know, but that's what really scares me.
I don't know what to do. Gahhhhhhhhhh.
The other job is with a small electronic supply store. It's independently owned and has a small staff. They're very laid back and people-oriented, one of my friends works there and that's how I got the offer. The manager loved me in the interview and really wants me to come onboard. However, because it's a small company, he was only able to offer me $7 or $8 an hour at first. I told him about the offer I got from Target and he's doing what he can to match it. He says he can give me full time plus benefits, and start me at $9 or maybe $10 if the owner approves. I could also make conditional commission and there may be chances for overtime.
I really don't know which one to go with. Yes, Target pays better (about $100 a week more), but it's a big corporation and I'm not much for corporate America. The electronic store is laid back and I'd actually have a voice there, plus the opportunity to learn a lot about electronics and possibly pursue a career of that nature. But at Target I'd be a boss, I'd be starting off at a higher position. The electronic store would be a lot more work, which kind of appeals to me because I'm a hard worker, but Target seems like kind of an easy ride for good money. I'm completely torn.
I feel really shitty because the pay is such a major factor here. I've always had somewhat strong convictions and thought that money can't buy happiness and all that jazz.... but then this comes along. It's not even that I think I'd be unhappy at Target, if it were a job I thought I'd hate there'd be no contest, or if the electronic store were a comic shop or something like that I'd easily take it. But I think I could be happy at either job. The major thing is that Target would pay me $100 a week more, which is $400 a month, $5000 a year, meaning that if I took that job, I could afford to move out. If I take the electronic store job, I'm losing my rent money. I'd have to stay living at my dad's house in fucking Wilmington for who knows how long.
I think what's really holding me back from Target is the idea of selling my soul. I guess I've always lived by these punk rock standards, which sounds completely silly when I type it out but that's the best way I could think to describe it. I don't ever want to grow up and give up these ideals, but I know that I should be thinking of my future and stability and all that. But does that compromise the person I've always prided myself on being? I'm all about pride and convictions and staying true to myself (I even have "To Thine Own Self Be True" tattooed across my wrists), so by taking a job with a big corporation where I'm just a number because it'll pay me more money, am I compromising any of that? I don't know, but that's what really scares me.
I don't know what to do. Gahhhhhhhhhh.