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STORY OF THE YEAR FUCKING ROCKED MY SOCKS!!!!
God what a great concert. Saw soo many people there that I haven't seen in like forever. Everyone thought Scott was my bf. hahaha. What the hell. good stuff. common guys you know he's my next door neighbor and he's like 30 some years old. We(me and Scott) rocked out at the concert and then went with Shane, Billy, and David to Archies to get food after the concert. then everybody craped out on me. Shane didn't wanna keep me up because I had to be at work sunday at 8 and scott had to go home. so I just wnet home by myself...
Okay new topic.... how about my mom keeps hasseling me to move back... I dunno thou cuz like I might come over like once a week to do homework or help her out and we will start arguing about at least one thing during the whole time I'm there. So I just threw back yeah we fing fight and I'm barely around. what's gonna happen if I'm here 24/7. it's just going to go back to the way it was. and I KNOW the only reason she wants me home is because Howard is gone and she's lonely. but wtf is going to happen when he comes back up here from florida? exact same shit. Also I don't even live with her and she's getting into my friendship with Scott. She thinks that it's "not natural" that I hang out with Scott, Steph, Josh, and Julie just because they are a good deal older than me... I was like wtf I can't help who I get along with and I like hanging out with them. I don't see age I just see friend. But yeah like I guess she called Scott up sunday after the concert and bitched him out because he went with me. I mean what the hell it was his bday present from me to go to the damn concert. What gives her the fucking right to tell him that he can't hang out with me. I friggin hate it.
Yesterday I went over scott's to make sure we were still going to detroit this friday and he syas no because my mom is giving him crap about hanging out with me and then his wife doesn't think its a good idea cuz some how my mom would find out about it and even though we aren't doing anything wrong or bad, she(my mom ) would get pissed and start a bitch fit. So now my fucking weekend is shot to hell. now i'm working friday, saturday and sunday all day long to keep me busy cuz I don't have anything to do. God I hate this. Why do parents have to be soo friggin gay?
So yeah now moving back home is not an option. I wont do it and scott wont let me do it cuz if I move back I'll never be able to hang out with him or have the freedom that I do now. can't wait to get my own place. I love rachelle and everything but a lot of time we just clash and I don't want to reck our friendship by me staying here. also I feel like a moocher. I need to get out and make it on my own. I know I can do it. might be hard sometimes but I can do it.
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I'll never know whatthe future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life