Heart Break

[keyofblue8]

I'm sorry. My heart aches. yeah... it really does. Yes it came on fast... yes it seemed crazy... Yes he's a few years younger... but regardless.... I fell. and just as quickly as I fell it ended... everything was mutual until the very last decision. He has commitment issues... that's what I get for falling for an 18 year old... (no offense to any 18 year olds out there)... i'm not pissed... just disapointed in myself... When I met him, I (and ALL my friends lol) said "he's in a WAY different part in his life than I am... this is NOT a good choice." Then my heart said "Oh... but it's LOOOVE, follow it..." Yeah, well... Love is a many splendid thing... i'm not feeling anything SPLENDID right now... He's a sweet heart and an interesting kid... but, I need to wake up... I keep giving people that benefit of the doubt when it comes to age and "maturity." David Torro (a wise WISE man) once told me that if someone younger says they're mature for their age... never believe it... becaues a really mature person wouldn't feel the need to tell you that. Hah... I needed that one about amonth ago. ANYway... Here's to being chased... to falling for the guy who wants ME for once... not for the unobtainable and difficult... Do you know, I've never seriously liked a guy who pursued me first? I need a shrink. (Ilona... where you be?)

A bright note: I received a BEAUTIFUL bouqet of flowers from an ANONYMOUS person today... ; )
(I Love Jessica Boore... with all my lil heart)

Until Love comes a knockin'

-Adam-