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Let's start with a rant! :)
I am foolish.
What I FINALLY figured out this week: no one wants to be friends, at all.
They just want a little when it's easy and uncomplicated. Lucas is easy to turn down/get mad at.
Mike is not, and that's why I'm foolish- because while Lucas actually does things like buy me coffee or offer dinner, and at least is upfront about wanting a hook up (which I can ignore), Mike is more subtle but probably more manipulative, and more hurtful. And it probably never even occurred to him. It's just astonishing to me that I still care. and I don't know why. I feel like we should still be friends, but we aren't, not really.
But at least I know I'm making progress:
First Quarter I was dumb as shit, and made poor choices.
Second Quarter I was still kind of dumb, but didn't make as many.
Third Quarter, well... I haven't yet.
End Rant:
Some cool things-
I was front row at the Shins concert last night, in the freezing rain.
I am almost through my first year of college, which is completely unbelievable.
We interview next weekend for the most beautiful pink victorian house in the world.
I'm so glad I've forced myself to be single this year, it was the best choice I've ever made.
I am foolish.
What I FINALLY figured out this week: no one wants to be friends, at all.
They just want a little when it's easy and uncomplicated. Lucas is easy to turn down/get mad at.
Mike is not, and that's why I'm foolish- because while Lucas actually does things like buy me coffee or offer dinner, and at least is upfront about wanting a hook up (which I can ignore), Mike is more subtle but probably more manipulative, and more hurtful. And it probably never even occurred to him. It's just astonishing to me that I still care. and I don't know why. I feel like we should still be friends, but we aren't, not really.
But at least I know I'm making progress:
First Quarter I was dumb as shit, and made poor choices.
Second Quarter I was still kind of dumb, but didn't make as many.
Third Quarter, well... I haven't yet.
End Rant:
Some cool things-
I was front row at the Shins concert last night, in the freezing rain.
I am almost through my first year of college, which is completely unbelievable.
We interview next weekend for the most beautiful pink victorian house in the world.
I'm so glad I've forced myself to be single this year, it was the best choice I've ever made.