Promises and Temptation
Title: Promises and Temptation
Author: key_oblivion
Pairing: Jonghyun/Key, Onew/Key, Jonghyun/Taemin, broken! Minho/Key
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst, Drama, Smut
Warning(s): Contains Adult Content
Word count: 4, 567
Summary: Love and Lust are both different things that could either make a relationship stronger or it could mess it up completely, Kibum had always been unsure of the emotions he felt, he was no typical teenager, he always thought that he already experienced what most teenagers didn’t.
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot.
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Promises and Temptation
There would always be a difference with Love and Lust, people would often think that their in-love, but they could never really identify when Lust is slowly tainting the once innocent love they had, slowly Love was fading, and Lust was taking over, there was always a boundary, but those boundaries crumpled down into nothingness.
Kim Kibum, a hard-working student, majoring in arts in a well known University in Korea, the people around him always thought he was perfect, no flaws what so ever, but it was nothing but a façade that Kibum was able to put up, he was doing everything to escape his past, he was nowhere near perfect, he had a lot of flaws, he was tainted, in his own personal view, he was nothing.
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Kibum had gone through a lot of relationships, he first dated a guy named Choi Minho, a senior in his school, he was still a naïve freshman back then, he thought he was in-love with Minho, but after Minho graduated high school, they began to drift apart, they broke up after their seventh month anniversary, Minho made a huge fuss about it, but after Kibum explained, they both agreed to break it off.
During his second year of high school, Kibum fell in love with his classmate, and also a close friend Kim Jonghyun, when they began dating, they decided to keep it a secret, it was going well, but secrets can’t be kept for long, one of their classmates in dance class found out and started spreading about it, Eventually they started going out in public, not caring of what people thought about them, all their friends supported them, but Kibum’s family doesn’t, he had strict parents, he wasn’t allowed to have relationships, and if his family found out he was gay, they would have a fit, in fear of the consequence he stayed quiet.
Kim Kibum and Kim Jonghyun were inseparable, they did things together, they would never leave each others side for even an hour, it was as if they were both married to each other already.
They had sex on the third week of their relationship; people may think that they were going to fast, but to Kibum they weren’t, because Kibum thought that it only brought them closer.
But an incident almost broke them apart, when Kibum went to Minho’s house to greet him a Happy Birthday, Kibum didn’t realize what happened, first thing was they were watching TV, then they began making out, one thing led to another, till they were caught having sex by Minho’s younger brother when he got home from soccer practice.
Kibum remembered the way Minho pulled out of him and ran out to talk to his brother, he cried in fear, because Minho’s brother was one of his classmates who were close with Jonghyun.
Minho came back and started soothing Kibum; Minho promised him that Jonghyun would never know.
But secrets would eventually be found out, Kibum suddenly got a call from Jonghyun, when he answered the call, he already knew what to expect. Jonghyun was shouting, practically screaming at him, asking what happened, and why was he at Minho’s house, Kibum found out that Minho’s brother had told Jonghyun to watch Kibum carefully.
“Tell me what the fuck happened Kibum? Did you or did you not have sex with Minho?”
Kibum didn’t know how to deal with an over emotional Jonghyun, he was angry, and what ever Kibum was telling him fell into deaf ears, Jonghyun refused to listen to any explanation, he was beyond furious, and his heart broke into pieces.
He lied, he lied to Jonghyun, and he knew it was wrong, but it was the only thing he could do to save himself and Jonghyun from the pain.
Things didn’t end well that day, they both agreed to give each other space, Kibum had to agree, because he knew he should let Jonghyun calm down first before he could pursue him again.
After just three days, Kibum and Jonghyun were back to each other’s arms crying, apologizing to each of their mistakes.
They still had sex, on numerous occasions, Kibum would always sneak out and go to Jonghyun’s house, and nobody knew what was happening behind closed doors, it slowly became a habit.
But one day they realized, it wasn’t a habit anymore, it was turning into an addiction, they knew they were too obsessed with each other to even consider other things besides sex.
Things were going well for Kibum and Jonghyun, they celebrated their first anniversary during their third year of high school, Kibum’s family still didn’t know anything, and Kibum liked to keep it that way. Jonghyun’s Family would often invite Kibum over for dinner, and often on family outings, of course Kibum had to beg him mother so he could go.
On their last year of high school, things weren’t going too well, Kibum and Jonghyun would often have arguments, a few days after Kibum’s birthday they had to plan a school event, Kibum and Jonghyun were on different groups, so for the first time in their one year old relationship, they did things differently.
After the school event, Kibum and Jonghyun started arguing again, Jonghyun had his limits so does Kibum, they were both getting tired, but Kibum tried and tried to keep things working, but his efforts turned into nothing.
It all changed when Jonghyun started hanging out with one of their classmates, Lee Taemin, who happens to be Kibum’s classmate since Elementary who just transferred back to their school, Kibum always thought that Taemin was an innocent child, not meddling with other people’s business, always smiling, and he practically glowed.
Kibum would let Jonghyun hang out with Taemin, but it became too much, some of Kibum’s friends had told him that Jonghyun was being too friendly with Taemin, as if Jonghyun didn’t have a boyfriend. Kibum hated to admit it, but he too had noticed, Jonghyun spent less time with him for the past few days.
In the end, after a year and eight months Kibum and Jonghyun broke up, Kibum still tried to get back with Jonghyun, he really did, but Jonghyun had already closed his heart.
After a few months, Kibum found out that Jonghyun and Taemin were together, after a few weeks of constant denial that they were best friends, they were finally dating, it broke Kibum’s heart even more.
When Kibum and Jonghyun broke up, Kibum started drinking and smoking again, he was sent to the school counselor on numerous occasions, and he had started going home late as well, he wasn’t drunk but it was obvious that he was drinking, his mother found out what happened, but she knew better than to scold her only son about it, she knew he already learned his lesson.
Kibum started hanging out with his friends again after what happened, he was slowly trying to forget Jonghyun, it was harder than he thought, it didn’t help that he would see Taemin and Jonghyun getting lovey dovey with each other all the time, of course some things never changed, he knew Jonghyun like the back of his hand, and he knew the innocent Taemin he once knew was no longer there.
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Things didn’t change when Kibum and Jonghyun graduated, they didn’t talk to each other again, and Kibum stopped talking to Taemin as well, Kibum made a small cheer when he found out that Taemin was leaving for the States.
“Feel the pain I felt Jonghyun.”
Kibum started talking to Taemin again after they finished their school community service, of course Jonghyun had to be there, he would constantly send glares at Jonghyun’s way, cursing him in his mind.
Jonghyun never changed, he was still the emotional bastard Kibum dated, he was still demanding, clingy, and loud, he never knew how Taemin kept up with him, specially with his needs, and Kibum wasn’t even thinking about emotional needs.
Kibum caught them having sex twice in the school washroom, and even caught them touching each other in class when all of their classmates were all too busy listening to the boring teacher, his teacher must have hated him that he was seated just a few chairs next to Jonghyun and Taemin.
When summer vacation started, Kibum was more than thankful that he wouldn’t see Jonghyun and Taemin ever again, he wasn’t in love with Jonghyun anymore, but that doesn’t mean he forgave him for what he did, he realized that his love for Jonghyun no longer held the same meaning.
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Kibum stopped his bad habit of drinking and smoking when he started dating his best friend of six years, Lee Jinki, he was also known as Onew, he was Kibum’s classmate since the fourth grade of elementary school, he thought his love for Jinki was only a simple crush, but time passed and it turned into something more, he was actually surprised when he received a letter of confession from Jinki during the summer, he actually cried in happiness.
They both knew that their relationship would be complicated but still they still went for it, Onew moved into an apartment in Seoul since he was the only student in their class who was smart enough to get into Seoul National University, he promised Kibum that they would meet up when he goes home on the weekends.
University life for Kibum was going well, he would keep in contact with Jinki everyday, sending simple messages like ‘I love you.’ Or ‘I miss you.’ As cheesy as it sounds, Kibum felt contented when Jinki would also send him those messages.
Their relationship was almost perfect, Kibum had openly introduced Jinki to his family, and so did Jinki, both of their family were supporting them, Kibum never felt happier, he always hated lying and hiding from his mother, now he felt free.
Jinki fulfilled his promise of going home during the weekends, but Kibum knew better than to disturb Jinki when he had exams coming up, Seoul National University was no joke, so Kibum never demanded Jinki for his attention, he would only ask Jinki when he was sure that he was free.
On Kibum’s birthday, he had invited Jinki over for dinner, he had also introduced him to his mother’s friends, he knew they liked Jinki; it was pretty obvious how all their eyes sparkled when Jinki walked in.
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Kibum was browsing his facebook one night when he saw Jonghyun’s new post, he recently broke up with Taemin, the distance probably took it’s toll on them, how could they even talk to each other the time difference was already huge, it was an unhealthy relationship in Kibum’s mind.
‘I’m so bored, somebody talk to me please.’
And so he did.
‘If you’re bored, then go to something fun :)’
Kibum didn’t wait for a reply, so he went back to browsing, he suddenly got a new notification stating that Jonghyun replied to his entry, he got curious so he clicked back to Jonghyun’s page.
‘Go online on MSN.’
Jonghyun didn’t know that Kibum made a new address, so Kibum had to re-read the whole thing again.
‘I made a new address, so I’ll add you again k.’
So Kibum did, they began chatting again for the first time in months after they broke up, he felt happy to know that his relationship with Jonghyun wasn’t completely cut off.
They chatted about random things, from school to the latest TV show they saw, Kibum didn’t dare ask Jonghyun why he was talking to him again, it seems Jonghyun has already moved on.
DinoJjong: Hey wanna hang out tomorrow?
DivaKey: I dunno, I have class, what about Thursday? I’ll be out of Uni in the afternoon.
DinoJjong: Great! See you then! You still have my number right? I think I still have yours; I have to go off now my sister is nagging again, Bye!
Kibum didn’t want to admit it, but he still had Jonghyun’s number, he didn’t have the strength to delete it, but he felt happy to know that Jonghyun still had his, suddenly he felt panicked, how could he face Jonghyun again after a few months of completely ignoring him, and specially step into their house, Kibum grumbled remembering the scene he did when Jonghyun broke up with him, specially when they were inside him room, Kibum groaned in embarrassment, he was pretty loud when he did it with Jonghyun.
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Kibum did nothing but fidget in his seat nervously, he was suppose to go to Jonghyun’s house to hang out, he even brought his own DVD just in case Jonghyun didn’t have any new movies, the teacher’s lessons didn’t reach Kibum’s mind, he was too busy thinking what to say to Jonghyun when they meet.
Classes ended faster than Kibum expected, he wanted to back out on hanging out with Jonghyun, but he had this nagging feeling on the back of his head telling him to go, so he just sighed in defeat as he rode the bus going to Jonghyun’s place.
It’ll take about an hour and a half from Kibum’s university to Jonghyun’s house, which gave Kibum time to relax his nerves, after 10 months of no communication with Jonghyun; they were going to meet again. Kibum leaned his head on the bus window as he watched the neighbor pass by in a blur of colors, he reached into his pocket for his phone, grabbing the small device, he stared at it, deciding whether to text Jonghyun or not, as if on cue, his phone lighted up and buzzed, indicating a new received message.
From: Dino
12:45pm
Hey Key! Hope ur not lost on ur ways here.
I doubt it though, where r u anyways? D:
Oh and Junghee isn’t home, and the maids are on vacation.
I’ll leave the gate lock open for you so you can head up to my room.
If I don’t open the gate or the door for you, it means I’m in the shower.
C u later Diva! \(^o^)/
Kibum chuckled at the short message, Jonghyun never stopped calling Kibum a Diva, Kibum was well aware that he was a Diva, he never denied it, but then the message sunk into his brain.
“Alone with Jonghyun? Oh God. What did I get myself into?”
Kibum buried his face on the palm of his hands, deciding to give a reply, he looked out of the window again, he was now at a familiar neighborhood, just a few more minutes and he’ll be arriving at Jonghyun’s street.
To: Dino
12:55pm
I’m almost at your street.
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Kibum looked around the familiar neighborhood, the last time he went there was when he visited Jonghyun’s cousin, who happens to be one of Kibum’s best friends, Jonghyun’s family lived closed to each other, so they were practically neighbors as well. Kibum stood outside a familiar gate, nothing changed, the paint on the gate was still peeling off, some of the metal bars were rusting, and the plants were still there, unconsciously he rang the door bell, he waited for a few minutes, but nobody came, so he checked the gate again, and saw the padlock just hanging, unlocked.
So Kibum fiddled with the padlock till he was able to unhook it, he grabbed the metal bar and slid it to the left, the gate creaked as he pushed it open, Kibum carefully looked around, surely nobody was really there, he opened the front door without hesitation, it also creaked when he pushed it open, the lights in the living room were off, even in the kitchen, he took a good look around, it was still the same, the furniture the decorations, even the curtains.
Deciding to walk up on the stairs, Kibum flicked the living room lights open before taking careful steps up to the bedrooms, he practically knew the whole house like he owned it, he removed his shoes by the door so avoid more noise, so he silently went up to Jonghyun’s room, when he pushed the door open, the dino was no where to be found, so he checked the bathroom, sure enough Jonghyun was inside, he recognized that voice anywhere, Kibum had to laugh, Jonghyun still had the habit of singing in the bathroom.
He walked back to Jonghyun’s room and sat on the bed, Kibum closed his eyes, the memories were flashing behind his closed lids, the whole atmosphere reminded Kibum of every memory he had with Jonghyun.
“Don’t tell me you can sleep in that kind of position.”
Kibum turned his head, the sight before him was something he thought that he wouldn’t see anymore, Jonghyun was leaning on the doorframe, clad with only his shorts and a towel around his neck, water was still dripping from his hair to his body, Kibum had to will himself to stop starring.
“Oh. Uh. Hi?”
Jonghyun laughed and walked towards Kibum, “It’s good to see you, you know.”
“Uh. Yeah, you too.” Kibum was playing with the hem of his t-shirt; he kept his vision on the floor instead of looking at Jonghyun.
“So what do you want to do? I ran out of good movies to watch.”
“I brought one of my DVDs just in case.” Kibum opened his school bag and pulled out the DVD case and handed it to Jonghyun.
“Oh? Splice? Is this some kind of those sick types of American movie? Oh and you wouldn’t mind if I open the AC right? It’s really hot here at home, damn weather.” Jonghyun placed the DVD on top of the player and walked towards the AC which was at the corner of the room.
Kibum looked up, Jonghyun was still topless, Kibum could clearly see the curve of Jonghyun’s back, and his broad shoulders, If Kibum had to point out something different, he would easily say that Jonghyun had gained more muscles, Oh the dirty things Kibum thought of doing.
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“How are you and Jinki doing?” Jonghyun asked as he popped the movie into the DVD player.
“Were doing fine, his been busy with school lately.”
“Nice to know your doing good.” Jonghyun sat next to Kibum on his bed, the movie played with the opening credits, “I wish I could be too.”
“Why did you and Taemin break up anyways? It’s okay if you don’t tell me.”
“Well let’s just say things between me and Taemin didn’t work out too well, the time difference is huge, and I didn’t really like the idea that he keeps himself all night just to talk to me, it’s unhealthy.” Jonghyun kept his gaze on the TV screen, Kibum could clearly see that Jonghyun was still affected by the break up he had with Taemin, “but I asked him for another chance, he seems to be having some second thoughts.”
Kibum kept himself quiet, he doesn’t really know what to say to Jonghyun, there was a pregnant silence; the only sound was the movie playing.
“Hey why don’t you lie down with me, the bed is pretty soft ya know.”
“Uh. Yeah, Sure I guess.” Kibum crawled next to Jonghyun and laid down on his stomach as he watched the movie, he could easily feel Jonghyun’s heat radiating from his skin, even when the AC was already on, he was starting to feel hot.
There was one thing Jonghyun didn’t know, Kibum had already watched the movie once, and there was a scene that wasn’t meant for minors, sure Jonghyun wasn’t a minor anymore, but Kibum still felt embarrassed to watch such scene with Jonghyun just next to him.
Kibum was so in to the movie that he didn’t even notice when Jonghyun started poking his sides, his eyes narrowed as he stared at Jonghyun, the pokes continued, till Kibum was giggling loudly as he tried prying Jonghyun’s hands away from his ticklish side.
“Jjong S-stop! Oh God. Y-you know h-how ticklish I am!” Kibum started kicking Jonghyun lightly, the older just laughed and continued his attacks, but when Kibum saw an opening, he suddenly flipped them both, so now Kibum was strangling Jonghyun.
Kibum was panting as he held Jonghyun down, he puffed his cheeks in annoyance, the movie was still playing, so Kibum got off Jonghyun and started watching the movie again.
His moment of watching was yet again disturbed as Jonghyun started tickling him again; Kibum grabbed both of Jonghyun’s hands and pried them away, Jonghyun only laughed.
“If you want to play dirty, then we’ll play dirty.” Kibum suddenly flipped Jonghyun on his back and started his revenge; he knew where Jonghyun’s sensitive sides were.
Jonghyun was laughing loudly as he grabbed onto Kibum’s hands, he was kicking his legs to try wriggling free from Kibum’s grip on his sides.
Then suddenly Kibum’s eyes widened, Jonghyun accidentally brushed his pelvis up on his leg, Kibum could easily tell that Jonghyun was hard, so he stopped his attack and sat as far away from Jonghyun as possible, he grabbed one of Jonghyun’s pillow and hugged it, hoping to hide his blushing face.
“Oh what’s this?” Jonghyun pointed at the screen, and sure enough Jonghyun was pointing at the rated scene being played on the screen.
“Wow. I didn’t know that it had that kind of scene.”
“Are you sure? You don’t seem too surprised.”
Kibum couldn’t even reply back when he felt Jonghyun’s lips pressed against his, it was one of the things Kibum missed about Jonghyun, his kisses were always sweet, and addicting at the same time, so he closed his eyes and started kissing Jonghyun back.
Soon, Kibum was on top of Jonghyun again as they kissed, Jonghyun sucked on Kibum’s bottom lip, making Kibum let out a soft whimper, slowly Jonghyun’s hand crept into Kibum’s shirt, Kibum couldn’t help but let out another whimper as he felt Jonghyun’s cold hand run on his already heated skin.
“Is this okay?” Jonghyun asked as they broke apart for some air, Kibum buried his head on Jonghyun’s neck and nodded, it was something Kibum wanted for months, his self-control no longer existed as Jonghyun started running his cold hand on Kibum’s nipples, he let out a groan as Jonghyun rubbed the already hard nub.
Clothes were thrown around the room as Jonghyun strangled Kibum, they were panting heavily, the movie was long forgotten, Kibum starred into Jonghyun’s lust filled eyes, he was sure his eyes held the same thing.
Jonghyun sucked on two of his fingers, making sure they were slick enough with his saliva, Kibum’s eyes widened at the scene, seeing Jonghyun suck his own fingers were enough to make him harder, if that's even possible.
Kibum flinched when he felt Jonghyun’s fingers prodding on his entrance, he felt excited, but nervous at the same time, so he held onto the bed sheet as Jonghyun slid one of his fingers inside the tight ring of muscles, Kibum clenched around Jonghyun’s finger, it’s been too long since Kibum had sex, now he feels like he was a virgin all over again.
“Relax.” Jonghyun buried his head on Kibum’s neck, he licked the exposed skin, sucking a few times as he started scissoring his finger in and out of Kibum.
A second finger slid in, Kibum couldn’t help but let out a whimper, he was trying his best to relax, but he couldn’t ignore the stinging pain he felt as Jonghyun continued stretching him.
“Jonghyun s-stop, I’m r-ready.”
“Are you sure?” Jonghyun pulled out his fingers as he stared at Kibum’s tearful eyes.
“Oh god. Just do it already.”
Jonghyun spat on his hand and rubbed it on his length, pre-cum was already leaking out from his shaft, helping him lube himself. Kibum mentally prepared himself for the incoming pain, he tried steadying his breathing, he felt Jonghyun prodding on his entrance once again, he nodded before closing his eyes, Jonghyun pressed inside, slowing stretching the muscle and sheathing himself piece by agonizing piece, Kibum felt tears on the corner of his eyes, as he clutched on the bed sheet harder.
“K-kibum, you’re so tight.” Jonghyun groaned out.
“What do you expect after a year and two months without sex?” Kibum remarked despite the pain he felt, he could remember the first time he did it with Jonghyun, he could remember the way his body burned in pain and pleasure.
They were still for the longest time, the only sound being the movie that was long forgotten and making the moment all the more surreal.
“Jjong, M-move.”
And finally Jonghyun moved, pulling back out and then thrusting in with a jerk of his hips, causing Kibum to cry out and wrap his legs around Jonghyun’s waist. They began a slow rhythm; Kibum could no longer feel the pain, as it ebbed away gradually.
“Ah, fuck.” Kibum repeated over and over, cursing under his breath and rolling his head from side to side as Jonghyun started hitting his prostate dead on, and a slick hand pumping his erection with his thrusts.
They were having sex in Jonghyun’s room, their moans and groans loud enough for the neighbor’s to hear, but Kibum didn’t care, he didn’t care that they were practically screaming, he didn’t even care that he had a boyfriend. All he cared about was the feeling of Jonghyun’s cock thrusting deep inside of him, of his hands on his thigh and on his own throbbing, abused cock, of the look on his familiar face as he tossed his head back and pushed his hips again and again.
Kibum was nearing the end of this-he could feel it-and so he thrust his hips against Jonghyun’s and opened his mouth in a silent gasp as he came with a low moan, spilling his cum over Jonghyun’s rough hand and on his stomach.
Unable to keep going to how tightly Kibum clenched around him, Jonghyun came deep inside the brunette, grunting and shutting his eyes and gripping Kibum’s thighs almost painfully.
Jonghyun slumped down on the bed tiredly, as they panted heavily; he ran his hand on his sweat-slicked forehead, his hair clinging annoyingly.
“Kibum.”
“Hm?”
“Promise me one thing.”
“What is it?”
“Promise me that you’ll stay strong with Jinki.”
Kibum felt unsure for a moment, “I promise.”
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Things never did change; Kibum still went off with Jonghyun behind Jinki’s back, he still had a perfect façade in front of people, he still felt that he was nothing.
Kibum was never sure if he still felt something for Jonghyun, he was sure that it was only a physical attachment that was left, he had needs, Jonghyun had them as well, it was nothing more but two people helping each other get off.
By the end of the day, Kibum would always find himself crying his heart out in the shower as the water ran down on his naked form.
“I promise.”
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AN: Now ain't that fun? hahaha. this took me a whole week to finish, and hello Smut! Sorry that it only focused on JongKey, cause that's what I really intended to write, I hope the smut is good though.
I'm trying to write other pairings beyond 2min and JongKey lately, hence JongTae and MinKey appearing for a brief moment.
I should really stop procrastinating and update something.
By the way, if you guys still didn't know, I already have a personal journal.
it's kwon_min, if you guys want to get to know me a lot more beyond my works, you guys could just head on to that account if you want, it's friends only though, the journal is practically empty right now, so yeah.
Comments are appreciated :)
Author: key_oblivion
Pairing: Jonghyun/Key, Onew/Key, Jonghyun/Taemin, broken! Minho/Key
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst, Drama, Smut
Warning(s): Contains Adult Content
Word count: 4, 567
Summary: Love and Lust are both different things that could either make a relationship stronger or it could mess it up completely, Kibum had always been unsure of the emotions he felt, he was no typical teenager, he always thought that he already experienced what most teenagers didn’t.
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot.
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Promises and Temptation
There would always be a difference with Love and Lust, people would often think that their in-love, but they could never really identify when Lust is slowly tainting the once innocent love they had, slowly Love was fading, and Lust was taking over, there was always a boundary, but those boundaries crumpled down into nothingness.
Kim Kibum, a hard-working student, majoring in arts in a well known University in Korea, the people around him always thought he was perfect, no flaws what so ever, but it was nothing but a façade that Kibum was able to put up, he was doing everything to escape his past, he was nowhere near perfect, he had a lot of flaws, he was tainted, in his own personal view, he was nothing.
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Kibum had gone through a lot of relationships, he first dated a guy named Choi Minho, a senior in his school, he was still a naïve freshman back then, he thought he was in-love with Minho, but after Minho graduated high school, they began to drift apart, they broke up after their seventh month anniversary, Minho made a huge fuss about it, but after Kibum explained, they both agreed to break it off.
During his second year of high school, Kibum fell in love with his classmate, and also a close friend Kim Jonghyun, when they began dating, they decided to keep it a secret, it was going well, but secrets can’t be kept for long, one of their classmates in dance class found out and started spreading about it, Eventually they started going out in public, not caring of what people thought about them, all their friends supported them, but Kibum’s family doesn’t, he had strict parents, he wasn’t allowed to have relationships, and if his family found out he was gay, they would have a fit, in fear of the consequence he stayed quiet.
Kim Kibum and Kim Jonghyun were inseparable, they did things together, they would never leave each others side for even an hour, it was as if they were both married to each other already.
They had sex on the third week of their relationship; people may think that they were going to fast, but to Kibum they weren’t, because Kibum thought that it only brought them closer.
But an incident almost broke them apart, when Kibum went to Minho’s house to greet him a Happy Birthday, Kibum didn’t realize what happened, first thing was they were watching TV, then they began making out, one thing led to another, till they were caught having sex by Minho’s younger brother when he got home from soccer practice.
Kibum remembered the way Minho pulled out of him and ran out to talk to his brother, he cried in fear, because Minho’s brother was one of his classmates who were close with Jonghyun.
Minho came back and started soothing Kibum; Minho promised him that Jonghyun would never know.
But secrets would eventually be found out, Kibum suddenly got a call from Jonghyun, when he answered the call, he already knew what to expect. Jonghyun was shouting, practically screaming at him, asking what happened, and why was he at Minho’s house, Kibum found out that Minho’s brother had told Jonghyun to watch Kibum carefully.
“Tell me what the fuck happened Kibum? Did you or did you not have sex with Minho?”
Kibum didn’t know how to deal with an over emotional Jonghyun, he was angry, and what ever Kibum was telling him fell into deaf ears, Jonghyun refused to listen to any explanation, he was beyond furious, and his heart broke into pieces.
He lied, he lied to Jonghyun, and he knew it was wrong, but it was the only thing he could do to save himself and Jonghyun from the pain.
Things didn’t end well that day, they both agreed to give each other space, Kibum had to agree, because he knew he should let Jonghyun calm down first before he could pursue him again.
After just three days, Kibum and Jonghyun were back to each other’s arms crying, apologizing to each of their mistakes.
They still had sex, on numerous occasions, Kibum would always sneak out and go to Jonghyun’s house, and nobody knew what was happening behind closed doors, it slowly became a habit.
But one day they realized, it wasn’t a habit anymore, it was turning into an addiction, they knew they were too obsessed with each other to even consider other things besides sex.
Things were going well for Kibum and Jonghyun, they celebrated their first anniversary during their third year of high school, Kibum’s family still didn’t know anything, and Kibum liked to keep it that way. Jonghyun’s Family would often invite Kibum over for dinner, and often on family outings, of course Kibum had to beg him mother so he could go.
On their last year of high school, things weren’t going too well, Kibum and Jonghyun would often have arguments, a few days after Kibum’s birthday they had to plan a school event, Kibum and Jonghyun were on different groups, so for the first time in their one year old relationship, they did things differently.
After the school event, Kibum and Jonghyun started arguing again, Jonghyun had his limits so does Kibum, they were both getting tired, but Kibum tried and tried to keep things working, but his efforts turned into nothing.
It all changed when Jonghyun started hanging out with one of their classmates, Lee Taemin, who happens to be Kibum’s classmate since Elementary who just transferred back to their school, Kibum always thought that Taemin was an innocent child, not meddling with other people’s business, always smiling, and he practically glowed.
Kibum would let Jonghyun hang out with Taemin, but it became too much, some of Kibum’s friends had told him that Jonghyun was being too friendly with Taemin, as if Jonghyun didn’t have a boyfriend. Kibum hated to admit it, but he too had noticed, Jonghyun spent less time with him for the past few days.
In the end, after a year and eight months Kibum and Jonghyun broke up, Kibum still tried to get back with Jonghyun, he really did, but Jonghyun had already closed his heart.
After a few months, Kibum found out that Jonghyun and Taemin were together, after a few weeks of constant denial that they were best friends, they were finally dating, it broke Kibum’s heart even more.
When Kibum and Jonghyun broke up, Kibum started drinking and smoking again, he was sent to the school counselor on numerous occasions, and he had started going home late as well, he wasn’t drunk but it was obvious that he was drinking, his mother found out what happened, but she knew better than to scold her only son about it, she knew he already learned his lesson.
Kibum started hanging out with his friends again after what happened, he was slowly trying to forget Jonghyun, it was harder than he thought, it didn’t help that he would see Taemin and Jonghyun getting lovey dovey with each other all the time, of course some things never changed, he knew Jonghyun like the back of his hand, and he knew the innocent Taemin he once knew was no longer there.
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Things didn’t change when Kibum and Jonghyun graduated, they didn’t talk to each other again, and Kibum stopped talking to Taemin as well, Kibum made a small cheer when he found out that Taemin was leaving for the States.
“Feel the pain I felt Jonghyun.”
Kibum started talking to Taemin again after they finished their school community service, of course Jonghyun had to be there, he would constantly send glares at Jonghyun’s way, cursing him in his mind.
Jonghyun never changed, he was still the emotional bastard Kibum dated, he was still demanding, clingy, and loud, he never knew how Taemin kept up with him, specially with his needs, and Kibum wasn’t even thinking about emotional needs.
Kibum caught them having sex twice in the school washroom, and even caught them touching each other in class when all of their classmates were all too busy listening to the boring teacher, his teacher must have hated him that he was seated just a few chairs next to Jonghyun and Taemin.
When summer vacation started, Kibum was more than thankful that he wouldn’t see Jonghyun and Taemin ever again, he wasn’t in love with Jonghyun anymore, but that doesn’t mean he forgave him for what he did, he realized that his love for Jonghyun no longer held the same meaning.
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Kibum stopped his bad habit of drinking and smoking when he started dating his best friend of six years, Lee Jinki, he was also known as Onew, he was Kibum’s classmate since the fourth grade of elementary school, he thought his love for Jinki was only a simple crush, but time passed and it turned into something more, he was actually surprised when he received a letter of confession from Jinki during the summer, he actually cried in happiness.
They both knew that their relationship would be complicated but still they still went for it, Onew moved into an apartment in Seoul since he was the only student in their class who was smart enough to get into Seoul National University, he promised Kibum that they would meet up when he goes home on the weekends.
University life for Kibum was going well, he would keep in contact with Jinki everyday, sending simple messages like ‘I love you.’ Or ‘I miss you.’ As cheesy as it sounds, Kibum felt contented when Jinki would also send him those messages.
Their relationship was almost perfect, Kibum had openly introduced Jinki to his family, and so did Jinki, both of their family were supporting them, Kibum never felt happier, he always hated lying and hiding from his mother, now he felt free.
Jinki fulfilled his promise of going home during the weekends, but Kibum knew better than to disturb Jinki when he had exams coming up, Seoul National University was no joke, so Kibum never demanded Jinki for his attention, he would only ask Jinki when he was sure that he was free.
On Kibum’s birthday, he had invited Jinki over for dinner, he had also introduced him to his mother’s friends, he knew they liked Jinki; it was pretty obvious how all their eyes sparkled when Jinki walked in.
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Kibum was browsing his facebook one night when he saw Jonghyun’s new post, he recently broke up with Taemin, the distance probably took it’s toll on them, how could they even talk to each other the time difference was already huge, it was an unhealthy relationship in Kibum’s mind.
‘I’m so bored, somebody talk to me please.’
And so he did.
‘If you’re bored, then go to something fun :)’
Kibum didn’t wait for a reply, so he went back to browsing, he suddenly got a new notification stating that Jonghyun replied to his entry, he got curious so he clicked back to Jonghyun’s page.
‘Go online on MSN.’
Jonghyun didn’t know that Kibum made a new address, so Kibum had to re-read the whole thing again.
‘I made a new address, so I’ll add you again k.’
So Kibum did, they began chatting again for the first time in months after they broke up, he felt happy to know that his relationship with Jonghyun wasn’t completely cut off.
They chatted about random things, from school to the latest TV show they saw, Kibum didn’t dare ask Jonghyun why he was talking to him again, it seems Jonghyun has already moved on.
DinoJjong: Hey wanna hang out tomorrow?
DivaKey: I dunno, I have class, what about Thursday? I’ll be out of Uni in the afternoon.
DinoJjong: Great! See you then! You still have my number right? I think I still have yours; I have to go off now my sister is nagging again, Bye!
Kibum didn’t want to admit it, but he still had Jonghyun’s number, he didn’t have the strength to delete it, but he felt happy to know that Jonghyun still had his, suddenly he felt panicked, how could he face Jonghyun again after a few months of completely ignoring him, and specially step into their house, Kibum grumbled remembering the scene he did when Jonghyun broke up with him, specially when they were inside him room, Kibum groaned in embarrassment, he was pretty loud when he did it with Jonghyun.
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Kibum did nothing but fidget in his seat nervously, he was suppose to go to Jonghyun’s house to hang out, he even brought his own DVD just in case Jonghyun didn’t have any new movies, the teacher’s lessons didn’t reach Kibum’s mind, he was too busy thinking what to say to Jonghyun when they meet.
Classes ended faster than Kibum expected, he wanted to back out on hanging out with Jonghyun, but he had this nagging feeling on the back of his head telling him to go, so he just sighed in defeat as he rode the bus going to Jonghyun’s place.
It’ll take about an hour and a half from Kibum’s university to Jonghyun’s house, which gave Kibum time to relax his nerves, after 10 months of no communication with Jonghyun; they were going to meet again. Kibum leaned his head on the bus window as he watched the neighbor pass by in a blur of colors, he reached into his pocket for his phone, grabbing the small device, he stared at it, deciding whether to text Jonghyun or not, as if on cue, his phone lighted up and buzzed, indicating a new received message.
From: Dino
12:45pm
Hey Key! Hope ur not lost on ur ways here.
I doubt it though, where r u anyways? D:
Oh and Junghee isn’t home, and the maids are on vacation.
I’ll leave the gate lock open for you so you can head up to my room.
If I don’t open the gate or the door for you, it means I’m in the shower.
C u later Diva! \(^o^)/
Kibum chuckled at the short message, Jonghyun never stopped calling Kibum a Diva, Kibum was well aware that he was a Diva, he never denied it, but then the message sunk into his brain.
“Alone with Jonghyun? Oh God. What did I get myself into?”
Kibum buried his face on the palm of his hands, deciding to give a reply, he looked out of the window again, he was now at a familiar neighborhood, just a few more minutes and he’ll be arriving at Jonghyun’s street.
To: Dino
12:55pm
I’m almost at your street.
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Kibum looked around the familiar neighborhood, the last time he went there was when he visited Jonghyun’s cousin, who happens to be one of Kibum’s best friends, Jonghyun’s family lived closed to each other, so they were practically neighbors as well. Kibum stood outside a familiar gate, nothing changed, the paint on the gate was still peeling off, some of the metal bars were rusting, and the plants were still there, unconsciously he rang the door bell, he waited for a few minutes, but nobody came, so he checked the gate again, and saw the padlock just hanging, unlocked.
So Kibum fiddled with the padlock till he was able to unhook it, he grabbed the metal bar and slid it to the left, the gate creaked as he pushed it open, Kibum carefully looked around, surely nobody was really there, he opened the front door without hesitation, it also creaked when he pushed it open, the lights in the living room were off, even in the kitchen, he took a good look around, it was still the same, the furniture the decorations, even the curtains.
Deciding to walk up on the stairs, Kibum flicked the living room lights open before taking careful steps up to the bedrooms, he practically knew the whole house like he owned it, he removed his shoes by the door so avoid more noise, so he silently went up to Jonghyun’s room, when he pushed the door open, the dino was no where to be found, so he checked the bathroom, sure enough Jonghyun was inside, he recognized that voice anywhere, Kibum had to laugh, Jonghyun still had the habit of singing in the bathroom.
He walked back to Jonghyun’s room and sat on the bed, Kibum closed his eyes, the memories were flashing behind his closed lids, the whole atmosphere reminded Kibum of every memory he had with Jonghyun.
“Don’t tell me you can sleep in that kind of position.”
Kibum turned his head, the sight before him was something he thought that he wouldn’t see anymore, Jonghyun was leaning on the doorframe, clad with only his shorts and a towel around his neck, water was still dripping from his hair to his body, Kibum had to will himself to stop starring.
“Oh. Uh. Hi?”
Jonghyun laughed and walked towards Kibum, “It’s good to see you, you know.”
“Uh. Yeah, you too.” Kibum was playing with the hem of his t-shirt; he kept his vision on the floor instead of looking at Jonghyun.
“So what do you want to do? I ran out of good movies to watch.”
“I brought one of my DVDs just in case.” Kibum opened his school bag and pulled out the DVD case and handed it to Jonghyun.
“Oh? Splice? Is this some kind of those sick types of American movie? Oh and you wouldn’t mind if I open the AC right? It’s really hot here at home, damn weather.” Jonghyun placed the DVD on top of the player and walked towards the AC which was at the corner of the room.
Kibum looked up, Jonghyun was still topless, Kibum could clearly see the curve of Jonghyun’s back, and his broad shoulders, If Kibum had to point out something different, he would easily say that Jonghyun had gained more muscles, Oh the dirty things Kibum thought of doing.
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“How are you and Jinki doing?” Jonghyun asked as he popped the movie into the DVD player.
“Were doing fine, his been busy with school lately.”
“Nice to know your doing good.” Jonghyun sat next to Kibum on his bed, the movie played with the opening credits, “I wish I could be too.”
“Why did you and Taemin break up anyways? It’s okay if you don’t tell me.”
“Well let’s just say things between me and Taemin didn’t work out too well, the time difference is huge, and I didn’t really like the idea that he keeps himself all night just to talk to me, it’s unhealthy.” Jonghyun kept his gaze on the TV screen, Kibum could clearly see that Jonghyun was still affected by the break up he had with Taemin, “but I asked him for another chance, he seems to be having some second thoughts.”
Kibum kept himself quiet, he doesn’t really know what to say to Jonghyun, there was a pregnant silence; the only sound was the movie playing.
“Hey why don’t you lie down with me, the bed is pretty soft ya know.”
“Uh. Yeah, Sure I guess.” Kibum crawled next to Jonghyun and laid down on his stomach as he watched the movie, he could easily feel Jonghyun’s heat radiating from his skin, even when the AC was already on, he was starting to feel hot.
There was one thing Jonghyun didn’t know, Kibum had already watched the movie once, and there was a scene that wasn’t meant for minors, sure Jonghyun wasn’t a minor anymore, but Kibum still felt embarrassed to watch such scene with Jonghyun just next to him.
Kibum was so in to the movie that he didn’t even notice when Jonghyun started poking his sides, his eyes narrowed as he stared at Jonghyun, the pokes continued, till Kibum was giggling loudly as he tried prying Jonghyun’s hands away from his ticklish side.
“Jjong S-stop! Oh God. Y-you know h-how ticklish I am!” Kibum started kicking Jonghyun lightly, the older just laughed and continued his attacks, but when Kibum saw an opening, he suddenly flipped them both, so now Kibum was strangling Jonghyun.
Kibum was panting as he held Jonghyun down, he puffed his cheeks in annoyance, the movie was still playing, so Kibum got off Jonghyun and started watching the movie again.
His moment of watching was yet again disturbed as Jonghyun started tickling him again; Kibum grabbed both of Jonghyun’s hands and pried them away, Jonghyun only laughed.
“If you want to play dirty, then we’ll play dirty.” Kibum suddenly flipped Jonghyun on his back and started his revenge; he knew where Jonghyun’s sensitive sides were.
Jonghyun was laughing loudly as he grabbed onto Kibum’s hands, he was kicking his legs to try wriggling free from Kibum’s grip on his sides.
Then suddenly Kibum’s eyes widened, Jonghyun accidentally brushed his pelvis up on his leg, Kibum could easily tell that Jonghyun was hard, so he stopped his attack and sat as far away from Jonghyun as possible, he grabbed one of Jonghyun’s pillow and hugged it, hoping to hide his blushing face.
“Oh what’s this?” Jonghyun pointed at the screen, and sure enough Jonghyun was pointing at the rated scene being played on the screen.
“Wow. I didn’t know that it had that kind of scene.”
“Are you sure? You don’t seem too surprised.”
Kibum couldn’t even reply back when he felt Jonghyun’s lips pressed against his, it was one of the things Kibum missed about Jonghyun, his kisses were always sweet, and addicting at the same time, so he closed his eyes and started kissing Jonghyun back.
Soon, Kibum was on top of Jonghyun again as they kissed, Jonghyun sucked on Kibum’s bottom lip, making Kibum let out a soft whimper, slowly Jonghyun’s hand crept into Kibum’s shirt, Kibum couldn’t help but let out another whimper as he felt Jonghyun’s cold hand run on his already heated skin.
“Is this okay?” Jonghyun asked as they broke apart for some air, Kibum buried his head on Jonghyun’s neck and nodded, it was something Kibum wanted for months, his self-control no longer existed as Jonghyun started running his cold hand on Kibum’s nipples, he let out a groan as Jonghyun rubbed the already hard nub.
Clothes were thrown around the room as Jonghyun strangled Kibum, they were panting heavily, the movie was long forgotten, Kibum starred into Jonghyun’s lust filled eyes, he was sure his eyes held the same thing.
Jonghyun sucked on two of his fingers, making sure they were slick enough with his saliva, Kibum’s eyes widened at the scene, seeing Jonghyun suck his own fingers were enough to make him harder, if that's even possible.
Kibum flinched when he felt Jonghyun’s fingers prodding on his entrance, he felt excited, but nervous at the same time, so he held onto the bed sheet as Jonghyun slid one of his fingers inside the tight ring of muscles, Kibum clenched around Jonghyun’s finger, it’s been too long since Kibum had sex, now he feels like he was a virgin all over again.
“Relax.” Jonghyun buried his head on Kibum’s neck, he licked the exposed skin, sucking a few times as he started scissoring his finger in and out of Kibum.
A second finger slid in, Kibum couldn’t help but let out a whimper, he was trying his best to relax, but he couldn’t ignore the stinging pain he felt as Jonghyun continued stretching him.
“Jonghyun s-stop, I’m r-ready.”
“Are you sure?” Jonghyun pulled out his fingers as he stared at Kibum’s tearful eyes.
“Oh god. Just do it already.”
Jonghyun spat on his hand and rubbed it on his length, pre-cum was already leaking out from his shaft, helping him lube himself. Kibum mentally prepared himself for the incoming pain, he tried steadying his breathing, he felt Jonghyun prodding on his entrance once again, he nodded before closing his eyes, Jonghyun pressed inside, slowing stretching the muscle and sheathing himself piece by agonizing piece, Kibum felt tears on the corner of his eyes, as he clutched on the bed sheet harder.
“K-kibum, you’re so tight.” Jonghyun groaned out.
“What do you expect after a year and two months without sex?” Kibum remarked despite the pain he felt, he could remember the first time he did it with Jonghyun, he could remember the way his body burned in pain and pleasure.
They were still for the longest time, the only sound being the movie that was long forgotten and making the moment all the more surreal.
“Jjong, M-move.”
And finally Jonghyun moved, pulling back out and then thrusting in with a jerk of his hips, causing Kibum to cry out and wrap his legs around Jonghyun’s waist. They began a slow rhythm; Kibum could no longer feel the pain, as it ebbed away gradually.
“Ah, fuck.” Kibum repeated over and over, cursing under his breath and rolling his head from side to side as Jonghyun started hitting his prostate dead on, and a slick hand pumping his erection with his thrusts.
They were having sex in Jonghyun’s room, their moans and groans loud enough for the neighbor’s to hear, but Kibum didn’t care, he didn’t care that they were practically screaming, he didn’t even care that he had a boyfriend. All he cared about was the feeling of Jonghyun’s cock thrusting deep inside of him, of his hands on his thigh and on his own throbbing, abused cock, of the look on his familiar face as he tossed his head back and pushed his hips again and again.
Kibum was nearing the end of this-he could feel it-and so he thrust his hips against Jonghyun’s and opened his mouth in a silent gasp as he came with a low moan, spilling his cum over Jonghyun’s rough hand and on his stomach.
Unable to keep going to how tightly Kibum clenched around him, Jonghyun came deep inside the brunette, grunting and shutting his eyes and gripping Kibum’s thighs almost painfully.
Jonghyun slumped down on the bed tiredly, as they panted heavily; he ran his hand on his sweat-slicked forehead, his hair clinging annoyingly.
“Kibum.”
“Hm?”
“Promise me one thing.”
“What is it?”
“Promise me that you’ll stay strong with Jinki.”
Kibum felt unsure for a moment, “I promise.”
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Things never did change; Kibum still went off with Jonghyun behind Jinki’s back, he still had a perfect façade in front of people, he still felt that he was nothing.
Kibum was never sure if he still felt something for Jonghyun, he was sure that it was only a physical attachment that was left, he had needs, Jonghyun had them as well, it was nothing more but two people helping each other get off.
By the end of the day, Kibum would always find himself crying his heart out in the shower as the water ran down on his naked form.
“I promise.”
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AN: Now ain't that fun? hahaha. this took me a whole week to finish, and hello Smut! Sorry that it only focused on JongKey, cause that's what I really intended to write, I hope the smut is good though.
I'm trying to write other pairings beyond 2min and JongKey lately, hence JongTae and MinKey appearing for a brief moment.
I should really stop procrastinating and update something.
By the way, if you guys still didn't know, I already have a personal journal.
it's kwon_min, if you guys want to get to know me a lot more beyond my works, you guys could just head on to that account if you want, it's friends only though, the journal is practically empty right now, so yeah.
Comments are appreciated :)