[In the background, there's the light sound of wind. Someone's on a roof.]
I know you got why Xion was nervous about being around you after we explained things. But we never really talked about you and me. And me and Riku talked about some stuff the other day that made me think...maybe we should. That maybe it would help.
[That stops him for a minute. He hadn't thought about talking face to face, even though he probably should have. Maybe because he's just that used to minimizing contact.]
Um...you can come here if you want, or...either way.
[He thinks about that for a minute or two. Keeping things completely separate would be easier. But so would never talking, ever. So he closes his eyes, focuses, and opens a corridor to connect them.]
[Sora jumps a little, not all that used to having portals open near him without a Nobody popping out of them. If he wasn't talking to Roxas he'd be even more wary about walking through it to find out what was on the other side.
Thank Zeus he's not afraid of heights. He settles himself what he hopes is a comfortable distance away from his Nobody tucking the NV back in his pocket.]
[If he'd seen the startled reaction, Roxas might have apologized, but...convenient is convenient. They're one skill the Organization taught him that he actually appreciates. As it is, he nods in greeting and re-settles himself before speaking.]
I know you want to know more about me. If I went to sleep and someone like me ran around for a year without me knowing about it...I'd feel the same. Probably.
[He came here originally wanting to just let Roxas talk but he now he wanted to make sure his Nobody was informed of why he wanted to know more about Roxas.]
It's not just about wanting to know what you did while I was asleep. When I woke up I didn't know you existed...and I didn't realize it until Riku pointed it out a lot later. [Going to skip the whole part about the Organization calling them a traitor.] The first thing I said was that I wanted to meet you - I didn't know why I wanted to meet you - it was just what I felt in that moment.
Then when I did meet you it was so soon and suddenly you were gone again and I didn't get the chance to say what I'd been feeling. [He'd let Roxas have his goodbyes.] Now I know what wanted to say but I dunno if it'll mean anything to you right now so I just...haven't said anything.
[He's not sure what to say about the him that Sora knew, even if it was for as short a time as it sounds like. More than anything, he doesn't want to disappear, and knowing that he does...it's better if he doesn't think about it.]
I don't know if it would mean anything. That wasn't me, exactly...not the me who's here now. The only 'me' I know.
And that's...the thing is...
[He takes a breath.]
The thing is. We're separate here. But I have memories. Flashes. Of when we weren't.
It doesn't really matter what I think of them. It's what they mean.
See...I'm not just some side effect from when you lost your heart. If you think about it, it's sort of like...I used to be you. It's easy to say that we're different people now, but when I look back, I don't know where you stop and I start. That's why it's hard for me to be around you.
[Sora takes a few minutes to think it over, looking out at the view.]
You're the one trying to draw the line between us and to be honest we don't just start and stop because we're are both here now and even back home it's not like one of us just died and could live the others life. You are who you want to be, if you want to take the memories and make them your own then that's fine, if you want to treat them like they're just some big ol' grand adventure that you're watching then that's okay too.
Everyone will treat you exactly the way you want to be treated - at least the people who care about you will. [No saying what the Organization would do.] I know you're a piece of me but that's only part of what makes you you. You're also Roxas with your own thoughts and life and that's the way I've been looking at it because well...you seem to want to keep distance between us.
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Sure.
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I know you got why Xion was nervous about being around you after we explained things. But we never really talked about you and me. And me and Riku talked about some stuff the other day that made me think...maybe we should. That maybe it would help.
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Okay. Do you just wanna do it like this?
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Um...you can come here if you want, or...either way.
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Whatever you're more comfortable with.
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Here.
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Thank Zeus he's not afraid of heights. He settles himself what he hopes is a comfortable distance away from his Nobody tucking the NV back in his pocket.]
Hey.
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I know you want to know more about me. If I went to sleep and someone like me ran around for a year without me knowing about it...I'd feel the same. Probably.
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It's not just about wanting to know what you did while I was asleep. When I woke up I didn't know you existed...and I didn't realize it until Riku pointed it out a lot later. [Going to skip the whole part about the Organization calling them a traitor.] The first thing I said was that I wanted to meet you - I didn't know why I wanted to meet you - it was just what I felt in that moment.
Then when I did meet you it was so soon and suddenly you were gone again and I didn't get the chance to say what I'd been feeling. [He'd let Roxas have his goodbyes.] Now I know what wanted to say but I dunno if it'll mean anything to you right now so I just...haven't said anything.
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I don't know if it would mean anything. That wasn't me, exactly...not the me who's here now. The only 'me' I know.
And that's...the thing is...
[He takes a breath.]
The thing is. We're separate here. But I have memories. Flashes. Of when we weren't.
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You're getting them? Of my life here?
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See...I'm not just some side effect from when you lost your heart. If you think about it, it's sort of like...I used to be you. It's easy to say that we're different people now, but when I look back, I don't know where you stop and I start. That's why it's hard for me to be around you.
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You're the one trying to draw the line between us and to be honest we don't just start and stop because we're are both here now and even back home it's not like one of us just died and could live the others life. You are who you want to be, if you want to take the memories and make them your own then that's fine, if you want to treat them like they're just some big ol' grand adventure that you're watching then that's okay too.
Everyone will treat you exactly the way you want to be treated - at least the people who care about you will. [No saying what the Organization would do.] I know you're a piece of me but that's only part of what makes you you. You're also Roxas with your own thoughts and life and that's the way I've been looking at it because well...you seem to want to keep distance between us.
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