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its that damn feeling again.
every year i believe it to get worse and worse, and this time there's no hiding it
with the straight face that fails to show emotion
the body that is being killed from the inside out
and the heart that is in a million pieces.
giving up would be so easy.
but everyone, including myself...especially myself knows that im not like that and would never give up.
so then i just sit with the description above and wait.
for what?
who knows
and this entry is all over the damn place but i got nothing, and this is how i feel. I'm just tired of feeling this way and trying to hide it. im tired of people being concerned when i wish they'd just walk right by and not say anything. hell id rather they pretend im not there to be totally honest with you. i'd rather have u be 100% in my life or out of my life than coming and going like u do, and caring "at your convienance"
every year i believe it to get worse and worse, and this time there's no hiding it
with the straight face that fails to show emotion
the body that is being killed from the inside out
and the heart that is in a million pieces.
giving up would be so easy.
but everyone, including myself...especially myself knows that im not like that and would never give up.
so then i just sit with the description above and wait.
for what?
who knows
and this entry is all over the damn place but i got nothing, and this is how i feel. I'm just tired of feeling this way and trying to hide it. im tired of people being concerned when i wish they'd just walk right by and not say anything. hell id rather they pretend im not there to be totally honest with you. i'd rather have u be 100% in my life or out of my life than coming and going like u do, and caring "at your convienance"