Oct 20, 2006 22:23
ive been writing in this thing regularly lately, so that's not very good. i just can't keep all this shit inside anymore, so instead of writing it down, i type because im a faster typer.
he called tonight...a sentence he used was "we still need to talk"
i dont want you to break my heart. not tonight.
im doing just fine pretending everything's fine.
..because tonight was about me. and i didn't think about you until now. because i was with three great people. my mom, grandma, and jon. and jon made me forget u existed. he high fived me everytime i went up to the bowlng lane, whether i got a strike or a gutterball. and that made me feel awesome. and he doesnt know me as well as you do. but he made me smile throughout the whole bowling fundraiser.
but u never fail to call me. and although im flattered at the fact that u call me everyday, it breaks my heart to know this whole thing was a lie.
so shame on me for believing this lie. but i no longer do anymore.
so now it's shame on you.