Happy New Year?
Please there is nothing happy about this new year, and there never will be. It's starting out just like last year did like crap and it only gets worse. I'm never going to find love I might as well just face the facts I'm ment to be alone forever and I'm just gonna have to accept the facts. Oh well I must tell ya it sucks having very few friends and being all alone but that's my life and I guess I'm getting use to it. I try to distance myself from the crowd because I don't like to be near people. Ah well I'm just who I am. I've been walked on so many times I guess I'm use to it so I just find a way to pick myself up and try again but it seems like it gets harder and harder. Living in this stupid town doesn't help either. Oh well, I know I'm just sad and depressing to all of you happy readers so I'll try not to be so wordy tonight. I'm actually ready to go back to college. I really miss Lindsey and Kara. I dunno what I'd do without them lol. At least I have met some nice friends at college that kinda helps I guess. Sitting here at this house all day long really blows all I do is eat, sleep, get on here, feed the cat, and that's it. Nothing more or less. What a wonderful day I have right? WRONG! It sucks. I'm so happy when Saturday comes so I can go to the Tabernacle and get outta this house. I should've went today but I didn't feel good. I don't like going places when I have to "act" like I'm happy blah blah I'm like the grinch today even though I'm kinda laughin at some people on messenger. Well, I guess I will end this for now. I am going to the new supper wal-mart tomorrow so maybe I'll buy myself something nice and won't have to be all depressed who knows. I tried reading it doesn't help. Well I'm outta here for now. Shalom.
Jay
Jay