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made it to my sister's house. woke up feeling awful, suddenly hit me just after dining with family and future in-laws. almost blacked out, couldn't feel my limbs, so dizzy. got some fresh air. now, horrid flu. chills, nausea, and muscle aches are so much worse when you already have a muscle problem. pain pain pain like knives all up and down my spine. it's such tradition for me to be sick on christmas (not just 'at the holidays,' but on christmas day) that my family jokes about it but this is BAD. worst thing is that i'm now stuck here in azusa, can't even sit up let alone drive the hour to kempo's, so i don't know what we're going to do. i took 600mg ibuprofin but that was two hours ago and i don't feel any better. in fact I have to go back to my surgical recovery and kidney stones before I get to this kind of pain. kempo and i planned to spend christmas eve and christmas day together, I wanted my extended family to meet her, plus rescue her from her family and you'll just have to trust me when I say she needs rescuing from them. when she found out that my christmas is always disastrous she vowed to make this a good one. i just called her and she couldn't hide her disappointment. she was so sweet about it, but... rar.

send me vibes, friends, please... this is the first time in years that i'd had any hopes for christmas at all... there are worse things than being trapped immobile on a couch while everyone talks of 'praise band' vs. 'traditional services' and aegis missile radar systems but at least i was given this laptop.

still... the bummer is worse than the searing pain. if i make a miracle recovery i could still go get her. vibe for me! my optimism is being so damn tested that there's only seven days left for the year to end on a high note.