a walk on the beach...

[kevisimo]

i walked on the beach... i thought about the way i am... i feel different today... i feel like i am back in touch with the real world again... not floating out in my own world... i may know about all kinds of "out there" stuff like metaphysics and science and kaballah and buddhism etc etc etc... but i dont even apply any of this to myself... i float away instead of focusing on who i am inside... and how i interact with others... i walked out to the edge of a pier... i looked out toward the horizon... it looks like the world is flat... i could see the horizon as if it was the edge of the earth... i felt a little bit calmer seeing this... just because i can act sum other way does not mean i should be that way... i should just be the way i feel i should be... i feel i should be a good person... why do i act like nothing matters when i know it does??? what matters to me??? i need to consider this... i need to find out sum sense of who i am...

"there is a place for me
far far away
on a distant moon
or on a silver screen
with the perfect life
where you never die
you just press rewind"
- jump little children, "b-13"