beautiful sad...
ive been on quite a few substances lately... im not sure if i should keep that streak going or if i should give myself a break for a while... tate and his drumset came over to my garage last week and we jammed on "hava nagila" which was pretty interesting... we had a drum battle with my playing the bongos and him on his kit... it was nice... friday found me drunk and dancing with morgan and ferny and snorting stuff in a bathroom stall... it was really a lot of fun... the next day we saw pinback with sharin and afterward sharin ferny and i went to nova... then we drove up sumwhere to see the meteor shower... beautiful but sad... like sumone cut a hole in the city lights... i remember the starry sky of the north... gazing up through the pines... *sigh* im making money by correcting skoolwork for my mom who teaches 6th grade... i taught an art lesson yesterday too... i spent sum of the money i made at amoeba on sunday... i bought "music for 18 musicians" by steve reich and another vandermark 5 album "single piece flow..." i spent more of it on a dub though i didnt want that much but dealers dont have cash registers... which is why it should be legal... joanna and morgan and i went to pauls apt after smoking sum of that... joanna and paul played guitar... that night i fell asleep to the steve reich album... and last night paul and i went to morgans house and sharin and ferny were there sum of the time... mmm... pie was there too... paul and i were other people... they were in a sitcom... i ate del taco later... sumhow i ended up falling asleep to the vandermark 5 "target or flag" album... i have no idea what im doing for thanksgiving... maybe i can run away the whole day... i dont wanna eat dinner with my family cuz they only talk about themselves and the wonderful things they do... so here is what i would think in my head: "wow really??? since you seem to know everything in the world there is to know can you tell me sumthing about the ten sefirot??? oh you cant??? ok well lets talk about modal jazz... no dave koz is not modal jazz... ok well then youve heard john cage right??? what??? i thought you knew about all the great composers but now you tell me youve never heard of him??? well how bout that my family really isnt a bunch of hotshots like they make themselves out to be... who wouldve known... well then i guess i dont need to say this but... get over yrself!!! youve got enough ego to make up for yr lack of self-esteem to feed the entire taliban!!!" yeah... thats what i would think... i want more pie... peace... *