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Wow me and Kevin are fighting to much today!! Its sorta pissing me off!!! really fucking bad!!! But what ever! Im tired of his shit..But I love him so damn much!! I try to do stuff for hom but he doesnt see it he thinks that I fucking use him or some shit what fucking ever!! I dont use him and i love him more than he could ever imagine he doesent realize that! Its like I pour out my love to him but he dont recognize it..I try so hard to be what he wants me to be..He still hasnt asked me! He said hes waiting for the right time when the hell is gonna be the right time? Its like im so ready for him to ask me..Argh...
I just wanna die..I wanna wake up tmmr and be dead! Im so tired of everything getting screwed up by me...The reason we fight os always because of me..Im such a badfriend/girlfreind/daughter/sister! I never can do anything right..I fail school and never do good at anything Im sick of all this..I wish someone could help me! I feel like shit because I dont make anyone happy anymore!! All my friends start to hate me because I am such a bitch!
Why can I not be one what the hell is wrong with me? I think when everyone leaves tonight or tmmr when every I can im gonna slit my wrist...It seriously lets all my anger out and it feels good im so tired of making everyone mad and shit!! Why does my life have to be hell!! I try my hardest to make my mom happy she will never be happy with me she hates me so much! I just wanna get drunk and pass out so I dont have to feel anymore! I just wanna cut my wrist and watch the blood run! Maybe then ill feel better...Today like I have said one little thing to Kevin and he gets pissed! I said I dont like the way his tires look on his car and he got pissed...
Now he is in my room moaning and breathing hard like hes pissed at me! You see I can never make anyone happy..I just wanna run away and get away from everyone! Why cant I do that? I have nowhwere to run to I wish I could dissapear with out anyone remembering me that would be great! Why cant I just do that..Why cant I die? Agh Im getting upset and im starting to think of my dad I cant write anymore..Ill write later I guess
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I just wanna die..I wanna wake up tmmr and be dead! Im so tired of everything getting screwed up by me...The reason we fight os always because of me..Im such a badfriend/girlfreind/daughter/sister! I never can do anything right..I fail school and never do good at anything Im sick of all this..I wish someone could help me! I feel like shit because I dont make anyone happy anymore!! All my friends start to hate me because I am such a bitch!
Why can I not be one what the hell is wrong with me? I think when everyone leaves tonight or tmmr when every I can im gonna slit my wrist...It seriously lets all my anger out and it feels good im so tired of making everyone mad and shit!! Why does my life have to be hell!! I try my hardest to make my mom happy she will never be happy with me she hates me so much! I just wanna get drunk and pass out so I dont have to feel anymore! I just wanna cut my wrist and watch the blood run! Maybe then ill feel better...Today like I have said one little thing to Kevin and he gets pissed! I said I dont like the way his tires look on his car and he got pissed...
Now he is in my room moaning and breathing hard like hes pissed at me! You see I can never make anyone happy..I just wanna run away and get away from everyone! Why cant I do that? I have nowhwere to run to I wish I could dissapear with out anyone remembering me that would be great! Why cant I just do that..Why cant I die? Agh Im getting upset and im starting to think of my dad I cant write anymore..Ill write later I guess
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