Thanks to a "nudge" from Brizoni, I'm going to make an entry
I have several projects in my life right now; one of which is working on my self-esteem. I realize that there are a lot of things that I don't like about myself (which is a problem in itself) that are due to low self-esteem. I don't make as much effort in school, work, or auditions as it would take to succeed because I'm afraid that if I give it my all and I still don't get good results that I will be a failure. I compare myself to other people a lot, and I want that to stop really bad. And the worst thing of all is the subconscious passive aggressive tendencies I have of pushing away people I love because I take them for granted, friends and family (I know several of you have felt this).
That takes us to the second project: love. I've been reading a lot about love and discussing it with people in a group and one on one. I'm really enjoying the way it feels, and it helps with the self-esteem too. I'm seeing love as a relationship with: care, affection, recognition, respect, commitment, trust and open/honest communication. I'm coming to expect more from myself and more from friends, which has turned out really happy and somewhat disappointing in a couple cases.
I would like to talk with anyone about either of these two issues, it's what I'm into right now.
Another less serious project is getting my real estate license. At first I was just going to get it to help Dave get a house. But since it is such a large investment, I figure that I will just use that as my job. You can't really get fired, and it pays a lot if you're good at it. Hopefully I will find business soon, I can survive off of one or two deals for a long time. If anyone is thinking about buying a house, or knows someone that is, I would love a recommendation or to talk to you about it. Whatever you feel comfortable with.
Anyhow, maybe I'll try to update less sporadically. Don't want to get monotonous, these things are on my mind a lot.
That takes us to the second project: love. I've been reading a lot about love and discussing it with people in a group and one on one. I'm really enjoying the way it feels, and it helps with the self-esteem too. I'm seeing love as a relationship with: care, affection, recognition, respect, commitment, trust and open/honest communication. I'm coming to expect more from myself and more from friends, which has turned out really happy and somewhat disappointing in a couple cases.
I would like to talk with anyone about either of these two issues, it's what I'm into right now.
Another less serious project is getting my real estate license. At first I was just going to get it to help Dave get a house. But since it is such a large investment, I figure that I will just use that as my job. You can't really get fired, and it pays a lot if you're good at it. Hopefully I will find business soon, I can survive off of one or two deals for a long time. If anyone is thinking about buying a house, or knows someone that is, I would love a recommendation or to talk to you about it. Whatever you feel comfortable with.
Anyhow, maybe I'll try to update less sporadically. Don't want to get monotonous, these things are on my mind a lot.