Another Chapter Closes
Its a strange thing. I know it was for the best. I've known for a while that it wasn't going to work. Yet, I've convinced myself over and over again that it could. Comfortable comes to mind. Love? It stung because it caught me completely off guard. Talk about putting the hammer down on me. I don't like surprises. Esp. after spending so much time and mentally committing myself. I know I was more committed this morning than I ever have been. Now I'm completely uncommitted. What a shock to the system. Everyone told me what I already knew, wish I would have listened. Deep down I knew she wasn't the one. When I want to be with another one (or two) and would be willing to make sacrifices for another but not her, I should have hung it up there. I wasn't fair to her. Karma is a bitch. I had fun. I learned a lot. I grew up a lot. Some mistakes will never be made again. If I knew then what I know now, would it have been different. Its wasn't that I didn't care, I did more than for anyone else. I was an ass, needed to ensure the chapter was finished with 'the end'. Pictures.. they stung. I'm over IT. But its the 2 yr. hole that I think is the only thing still lingering. That hole will be filled. Hopefully sooner rather than later. There are better ones for me. This one was the bridge.. between being a child and an adult. I burned the bridge. I know how to swim now though and I have the energy and strength to swim to the other side without the bridge. I look forward to finding what's waiting for me on the other shore.
That's all that I will say about it... its other. Hello tomorrow. Goodbye yesterday.
That's all that I will say about it... its other. Hello tomorrow. Goodbye yesterday.