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So much has happened since I last updated this silly thing. I don't know why, but I have been angry for the last couple of weeks. It finally ended with my Mom sitting me down and talking to me about why I was so upset.
She knew it was about the whole Devon issue. I finally broke down and accepted the fact that she is gone. No really, broke down. It was like a lot of stress was released. I was glad that my Mom is amazing like that. Molly helped me out too. For awhile, I felt as if nobody was around and nobody cared, but really, a lot of people didn't know how to even approach the issue. I didn't help matters very much by just putting on my smiling face, and pretending that nothing is the matter.
I guess my entire life, I put on the happy face. I have learned to deal with things by just joking about them or not dealing with them... I suppose that is not healthy, but it makes me feel like I am in control.
I was nominated for Homecoming Court. I was really excited, but I doubt I will be the attendant for my year. Hiram did it in a peculiar way, by having the Professors nominate... That makes me feel good that Professors thought enough to nominate me.
Classes are going all right. I will definately be excited once they are done.
Fall Weekend is in a few weeks... Cow and I are going to NYC.
My spending is actually not that bad. I did get a D&G sweater that was a little expensive, but it is nice.
I miss Angela and people I never get to see. I did get to see Lisa B the other day for like 10 minutes.
I missed lunch with prom date. I feel bad about that.
Does anyone read this?
She knew it was about the whole Devon issue. I finally broke down and accepted the fact that she is gone. No really, broke down. It was like a lot of stress was released. I was glad that my Mom is amazing like that. Molly helped me out too. For awhile, I felt as if nobody was around and nobody cared, but really, a lot of people didn't know how to even approach the issue. I didn't help matters very much by just putting on my smiling face, and pretending that nothing is the matter.
I guess my entire life, I put on the happy face. I have learned to deal with things by just joking about them or not dealing with them... I suppose that is not healthy, but it makes me feel like I am in control.
I was nominated for Homecoming Court. I was really excited, but I doubt I will be the attendant for my year. Hiram did it in a peculiar way, by having the Professors nominate... That makes me feel good that Professors thought enough to nominate me.
Classes are going all right. I will definately be excited once they are done.
Fall Weekend is in a few weeks... Cow and I are going to NYC.
My spending is actually not that bad. I did get a D&G sweater that was a little expensive, but it is nice.
I miss Angela and people I never get to see. I did get to see Lisa B the other day for like 10 minutes.
I missed lunch with prom date. I feel bad about that.
Does anyone read this?