gotta love it
**This entry was written in an attempt to make myself feel better, i'm sorry if some of you can't accept that**
Last night I had a dream that we went to Disneyland,
Went on all the rides, didn't have to wait in line.
I drove you to your house where we stared up at the stars
I listened to your heartbeat as I held you in my arms.
We hung out at the rainbow where we drank til' half past two.
Nothing could go wrong anytime that I'm with you.
Like crashing a hotel room or leading up to that first kiss
Or searching for a high school that you know doesn't exist...
These are the things that make me free
I feel like I'm stuck in "stand by me"
This night was too good to be true.
Today I woke up alone wishing you were here with me,
I wanted us to be something that we'd probably never be.
Today you called me up and said you'd see me at our show,
But now I'm stuck debating if I even wanna go.
Whitney, don't you understand that what I say is true?
I just want you to know I have a major crush on you.
I'd drive you to Las Vegas and do the things you wanna do
I'd even have Wayne Newton dedicate a song to you.
I only wish that this could be
Just dump your boyfriend and go out with me
I swear I'd treat you like a queen.
Well, It's been a while since i've updated, and not much has gotten better. Homecoming came, homecoming went, it was a lot of fun, but would've been a ton of fun if i could find some self confidence within myself, for multiple reasons. I came to a few realizations that night that i really wish i hadn't, but i guess there's not much you can do about that. School's becoming more and more of an obligation than something to look foreward to. I've met some new people, most of which act in ways i don't agree with or like, so that's always cool. I actually probably shouldn't even be saying that about anyone else, because as of now i feel lost. i feel like i've lost/am losing all real friends, and am left with aquaintances. i've thought about it, and i can't think of any individual person that would unconditionably stand up for me if a situation came up. isn't that something fun to remind yourself of in the morning when you wake up? i definitely think so.
i had it all, now i've got nothing......i can't wait till i can move back to massachusetts, where i feel as though i belong. i'm sorry to whoever this may have offended, it wasn't meant to do so. don't think you don't mean something to me, because you do, i'm just confused.
Last night I had a dream that we went to Disneyland,
Went on all the rides, didn't have to wait in line.
I drove you to your house where we stared up at the stars
I listened to your heartbeat as I held you in my arms.
We hung out at the rainbow where we drank til' half past two.
Nothing could go wrong anytime that I'm with you.
Like crashing a hotel room or leading up to that first kiss
Or searching for a high school that you know doesn't exist...
These are the things that make me free
I feel like I'm stuck in "stand by me"
This night was too good to be true.
Today I woke up alone wishing you were here with me,
I wanted us to be something that we'd probably never be.
Today you called me up and said you'd see me at our show,
But now I'm stuck debating if I even wanna go.
Whitney, don't you understand that what I say is true?
I just want you to know I have a major crush on you.
I'd drive you to Las Vegas and do the things you wanna do
I'd even have Wayne Newton dedicate a song to you.
I only wish that this could be
Just dump your boyfriend and go out with me
I swear I'd treat you like a queen.
Well, It's been a while since i've updated, and not much has gotten better. Homecoming came, homecoming went, it was a lot of fun, but would've been a ton of fun if i could find some self confidence within myself, for multiple reasons. I came to a few realizations that night that i really wish i hadn't, but i guess there's not much you can do about that. School's becoming more and more of an obligation than something to look foreward to. I've met some new people, most of which act in ways i don't agree with or like, so that's always cool. I actually probably shouldn't even be saying that about anyone else, because as of now i feel lost. i feel like i've lost/am losing all real friends, and am left with aquaintances. i've thought about it, and i can't think of any individual person that would unconditionably stand up for me if a situation came up. isn't that something fun to remind yourself of in the morning when you wake up? i definitely think so.
i had it all, now i've got nothing......i can't wait till i can move back to massachusetts, where i feel as though i belong. i'm sorry to whoever this may have offended, it wasn't meant to do so. don't think you don't mean something to me, because you do, i'm just confused.