I know he reads this but meh
I'm so sick of all the drama here and allways getting the feeling it's my fault somehow. granted sometimes it is, i'm a onry(SP?) fucker and some of the dumbest shit cooks me while other shit just doesn't that should. but i'm really fed up with it, and not just here, just in general. People, i'm trying to settle my life down, got good job prospects coming, got a boy friend I REALLY REALLY like and wish to settle down with. I'm over this shit, granted I'm not perfect nor is anyone else but seriously, I cannot go barely a day here without drama of some kind?
It's really gotta stop I'm loosing my mind in here, I don't hate Ciz, dispite me being annoyed with him.i just wish things where more peaceful here then they are. They were when it was just me and him. Unfortunately bills made that impossible to stay that way. Maybe it's the fact i'm around too many people or maybe that's backwards. I know my social skills lack but I doubt this bad. I'm not really sure why it's like this here, prehaps i'm too analytical for my own good. I just know that I'm tired of dealing with drama, I can't focus on what needs to happen when I deal with all the time and it's pretty much come down to this. Things don't change, I gotta go, my life is taking a turn for the better provided i don't fuck it up, I can't let all the bullshit swell up and ruin it. Simple as that. I'm supposed to do dishes and all but honestly have not had the time, i suspect I'll get greifed over it, I'll do them later once i settle down, just got home from my mom's for Xmas, was fun, didn't get much but it's the spending time thing i like the most anyways.
Anywho, I dunno, we'll see how it all turns out, trying to not worry about it so much and just go with the flow of things.
It's really gotta stop I'm loosing my mind in here, I don't hate Ciz, dispite me being annoyed with him.i just wish things where more peaceful here then they are. They were when it was just me and him. Unfortunately bills made that impossible to stay that way. Maybe it's the fact i'm around too many people or maybe that's backwards. I know my social skills lack but I doubt this bad. I'm not really sure why it's like this here, prehaps i'm too analytical for my own good. I just know that I'm tired of dealing with drama, I can't focus on what needs to happen when I deal with all the time and it's pretty much come down to this. Things don't change, I gotta go, my life is taking a turn for the better provided i don't fuck it up, I can't let all the bullshit swell up and ruin it. Simple as that. I'm supposed to do dishes and all but honestly have not had the time, i suspect I'll get greifed over it, I'll do them later once i settle down, just got home from my mom's for Xmas, was fun, didn't get much but it's the spending time thing i like the most anyways.
Anywho, I dunno, we'll see how it all turns out, trying to not worry about it so much and just go with the flow of things.