sleepless days
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i dont even want it, i fear it. i want to be mind-numb through restlessness. i dont want to do anything because i fear life. is that true? i should think more before i talk to myself, but i dont really want to haahaha. this is just a sad cry anyway. i can be pretty happy, i can be pretty. i want to connect to people but i just want them to connect to me... =) its hard for me to do the same, i dont really know how to talk to people softly anymore, its silly im sealed. wow is my outlet, i put time in. so everything else but my time builds up... and thats a lot of stuff. i dont have a drive to put my time into anything else.