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I feel i really need to do an lj the now! Im feelins oo weird, i dont even know! Kinda like im not me the now! What is wrong with me! I dont know if im just hungover or what but i dont think so! I actually need some intellect in my life the now! I feel my brain is a mush justa big lazy mush!! I dont know wat i wud do if i wasnt going to uni! Earlier i was thinkin of what it wud be like if i jst dropped out to get a job! I cudnt do that.. i actually could not face staying here ina deadend job! I dont even care what im writing here i got so scared earlier!! But then again im scared for uni incase i cant hack it.. have i left my languages too long to go back to them? I mean omg i should have been practising or sumthing but ive not been!! I feel like im gonna be so behind! I should have prepared myself. I also hate drama and i hate change! I need some activity .. some mental and physical activity and a new diet! I feel soo sluggish .. some1 give me an advanced higher maths exam to do please! I wanna jst go out for a big long run clear my head! I wanna have a new start for uni! Thats it. im gonna have a new start! Im gonna leave old habits!! Thats the answer.. i want a a new old me!! Jst stuff i hate doing im gonna stop! Im gonna spruce up! Im gonna enjoy life more... im gonna be me! Im going to be Kevin McAdam trough and through!! Me and just me! Only me!!! Im gonna live my life my way!
I want a new start! Like a new beginning!! Just a burst of freshness into life! I want me to change! But ims till gonna be me. i know what im talking about! I wanna DANCE DANCE!!!!!!!!!! <3
I want a new start! Like a new beginning!! Just a burst of freshness into life! I want me to change! But ims till gonna be me. i know what im talking about! I wanna DANCE DANCE!!!!!!!!!! <3