*Tomorrow is insane during the morning and day, but all the numerous plans in the evening aren't baby/mama-friendly, so I miss out again, just like I've been missing out for the past 11 months. I need recognition for the sacrifices I've made to make my son healthy, but that's probably asking too much.
You know I can nurse A, so you could leave him with me for several hours. I know you wouldn't want to go out all night, but if you want to go catch a movie or get in a couple hours of dancing or something, I can handle it.
And honey, I send you recognition from those of us who have been there; we know how soul-destroying it is to raise a little baby. It's a shame most of society doesn't seem to understand the stresses placed upon an involved and caring mother, but at least some of us recognize what you're going through and what an awesome thing you're doing. <3
I can understand your frustration over not being able to be as much of a mother as you want to be due to physical disability (oh, believe me, with the amount of days recently that I have been bedridden and unable to take care of Gavin, I DO understand). Try, as much as possible, to focus on what you're still doing, which is taking care of his major needs. Yes, you can't bounce him and soothe him; but you can still provide all of his nutrition and give him a warm body to sleep against and be there to love him. Even though you can't do as good a job as you want to do right now and that's sucky on an emotional level, you're still doing more than most mothers. :)
You know I can nurse A, so you could leave him with me for several hours. I know you wouldn't want to go out all night, but if you want to go catch a movie or get in a couple hours of dancing or something, I can handle it.
And honey, I send you recognition from those of us who have been there; we know how soul-destroying it is to raise a little baby. It's a shame most of society doesn't seem to understand the stresses placed upon an involved and caring mother, but at least some of us recognize what you're going through and what an awesome thing you're doing. <3
I can understand your frustration over not being able to be as much of a mother as you want to be due to physical disability (oh, believe me, with the amount of days recently that I have been bedridden and unable to take care of Gavin, I DO understand). Try, as much as possible, to focus on what you're still doing, which is taking care of his major needs. Yes, you can't bounce him and soothe him; but you can still provide all of his nutrition and give him a warm body to sleep against and be there to love him. Even though you can't do as good a job as you want to do right now and that's sucky on an emotional level, you're still doing more than most mothers. :)
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