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I was said for the vacation to end. It was an amazing adventure and I didn't want it to end.
On the same time, I was a little glad to have my own room again.
Had a good conversation with my dad on the drive home, as he was actually interested in my trip, and generally friendly to the idea that I went off and did my own thing, and didn't ONCE give off any vibe that he was upset or anything. It was SUCH an enjoyable calm conversation, I almost came out of the closet to him right there and then.
But I didn't.
I got home, saw my mom working in her office, hugged her, and she gave me a slightly passive-aggressive, "How was your trip?" with a bit of a snicker. I said it was good, and again in the same tone, she gives me a, "Oh, I bet."
I then compliment the new printer, and on my way out, she asks me to get her a cup of water. That's it. She is never interested in what I do outside of home. I think because it makes her feel left out that I do stuff without the family. I feel bad that I think my mom probably doesn't know much of who I am these days because of that.
But needless to say, once I got back into my room, I didn't want to be there, and I wanted to go back to the bay area.
It indeed was a long vacation and it felt that way, but I don't want it to end.
I'm doing my best to just focus on future plans. There is so much in the future to come, that it's honestly terrifying. I'm gonna hope it all works out and do my best to make it work to my favor.
On the same time, I was a little glad to have my own room again.
Had a good conversation with my dad on the drive home, as he was actually interested in my trip, and generally friendly to the idea that I went off and did my own thing, and didn't ONCE give off any vibe that he was upset or anything. It was SUCH an enjoyable calm conversation, I almost came out of the closet to him right there and then.
But I didn't.
I got home, saw my mom working in her office, hugged her, and she gave me a slightly passive-aggressive, "How was your trip?" with a bit of a snicker. I said it was good, and again in the same tone, she gives me a, "Oh, I bet."
I then compliment the new printer, and on my way out, she asks me to get her a cup of water. That's it. She is never interested in what I do outside of home. I think because it makes her feel left out that I do stuff without the family. I feel bad that I think my mom probably doesn't know much of who I am these days because of that.
But needless to say, once I got back into my room, I didn't want to be there, and I wanted to go back to the bay area.
It indeed was a long vacation and it felt that way, but I don't want it to end.
I'm doing my best to just focus on future plans. There is so much in the future to come, that it's honestly terrifying. I'm gonna hope it all works out and do my best to make it work to my favor.