ERMAGERD PHERTERGRERPHY
Since Photobucket has devolved and become muddled to the point of being useless I haven't been posting photography anymore, and that makes me sad. But conveniently, I like the "new" (it's been a while lmao) Flickr layout and they finally gave everyone ENOUGH SPACE TO USE IT instead of capping it at 100 photos for unpaid users like it used to be.
THAT SAID, I'VE BEEN TRYING TO USE FLICKR MORE THE PAST FEW MONTHS. But it's silly because I was working too much to really work on photos anyway. And I'm sad cause I liked posting them in here and having a place to add commentary and post things as a set, but none of the hosting services operate the way I like. So I'm gonna just link my Flickr albums here from now on.
The bad news is that it's an external link so it's not all encapsulated here. The good news is that the photos will be larger and nicer and if I really feel like I have to I can put individual captions on them.
Anyway:
It was really foggy when I left work the other day, and it's been such a long time since I've had the luxury to go out and shoot after work. Cause it used to be that if I got out of work and it was a really beautiful morning I could go grab my camera and then go galavant around Brookhaven to my heart's desire. But for the past year and a half it was like, I had to rush home and shower and go right to bed cause I was working two jobs and had to be up in 10 hours to go back to work. And before that, it was that I'd have classes at 8am and had to go home and change and go straight to school, or I'd have just had a full day of school and then work and I'd been up for 23 hours and needed to crash. And finally it's like how it used to be when I had time for creative expression. It feels nice.
So I was thinking about like, where are places that are close, but that I haven't shot too many times, because I didn't know how long it would be foggy and I feel like I'm getting sick of shooting the same places over and over. So I went to Pirate's Cove and shot there for a while. And then I decided to head over to Seaview Cemetery, and I shot there for a while, too. Then I started wandering into the trails behind the cemetery, and spent a couple hours in there. I wasn't expecting it to be so foggy for such a long time so I got a lot of shots out of it.
And then after all that, before I went home, I went to visit Alicia. It took me a long time after her funeral to return to her grave, but I've been visiting more frequently lately. It's gotten easier to be there. I don't know how I feel about any of it, because I'm not sure how to articulate my feelings about the afterlife and spiritual energy and whether or not these things are tethered to your physical body. And I've realized I don't think I go to her grave just for her. It's more that I like to go and leave things because I want her mom to know other people have been there, and I want her family to know other people still give a shit. So I think I do it for them, because, and I've said this many times, even though she and I weren't as close as adults, she was such a fucking important part of my life and such a huge huge huge part of the person I am today and I'm still so fucking gutted over it.