I've been invaded by pop-ups!
I went to Hershey Park for a few hours yesterday with Mark, Trina, and Anthony yesterday - we had fun! I haven't eaten so much chocolate in a long time; mainly because I don't really like it. But they brainwash you there.
I was also facinated by the number of parents who take their kids to a chocolate-themed amusement park, put them on roller coasters, pump them full of sugar, then get really angry and confused when they misbehave.
I've been feeling rather odd lately. A change is happening - not one that I intended, but rather one that I allowed to happen, I think. I've had a few realizations with which I don't know what to do.
I wonder where I ever stood in the grand scheme of things. I've managed to unknowingly surround myself with people who are unable to say what they mean and vice versa. Feelings of distrust that I shrugged off long ago are coming back again. I think that I must play a large part, subconsciously or otherwise, and I want it to end. I just don't know how...yet. Nobody's talking.
A very special person explained that we have many acquaintances but few real friends.
Mark: I guess the way I see it, all of the main characters were skilled actors who quit in the middle of production.
As most people know, Nate is back with us again. I was very excited because for once I was among the first to know something (I talked to his mother not long after she found out) yet I think that I'll be among the last to actually come into contact with him. I've unknowingly (though I mean that as no excuse) damaged a few relationships and reconciliation is damn near impossible when no one wants to talk to me.
Life isn't bad, don't get me wrong - I just haven't adjusted well the this newest curve ball. I do know, now, that my theory was correct - If I stopped going out of my way to call/see/contact people, it would bear little impact. It is my thinking that most of my relationships have consisted of my following after those who haven't found a way to tell me to stop.
Don't worry...I'm trying to stop.
I was also facinated by the number of parents who take their kids to a chocolate-themed amusement park, put them on roller coasters, pump them full of sugar, then get really angry and confused when they misbehave.
I've been feeling rather odd lately. A change is happening - not one that I intended, but rather one that I allowed to happen, I think. I've had a few realizations with which I don't know what to do.
I wonder where I ever stood in the grand scheme of things. I've managed to unknowingly surround myself with people who are unable to say what they mean and vice versa. Feelings of distrust that I shrugged off long ago are coming back again. I think that I must play a large part, subconsciously or otherwise, and I want it to end. I just don't know how...yet. Nobody's talking.
A very special person explained that we have many acquaintances but few real friends.
Mark: I guess the way I see it, all of the main characters were skilled actors who quit in the middle of production.
As most people know, Nate is back with us again. I was very excited because for once I was among the first to know something (I talked to his mother not long after she found out) yet I think that I'll be among the last to actually come into contact with him. I've unknowingly (though I mean that as no excuse) damaged a few relationships and reconciliation is damn near impossible when no one wants to talk to me.
Life isn't bad, don't get me wrong - I just haven't adjusted well the this newest curve ball. I do know, now, that my theory was correct - If I stopped going out of my way to call/see/contact people, it would bear little impact. It is my thinking that most of my relationships have consisted of my following after those who haven't found a way to tell me to stop.
Don't worry...I'm trying to stop.