Feb 22, 2008 00:19
When do you draw the line?
Where do you say, ok I have given up enough, now it is my turn to gain something? When do you decide to give everything up for the one thing you desire most? When you have that person, but how do you know if that person is the one?
Where do you draw the line?
When you don't have a world of your own, when everything you know belongs to someone else. When you can't decide for yourself any more you have to rely on someone else to make your decisions. Is that when, or if you have to ask a question just to get up in the morning. Even worse, when you have to ask a question to breathe. Is that where you draw the line, when you have surrendered yourself completely for that one thing. When you no longer have a personality of your own.
A new question, how do you recognize that point if you can't even recognize your own face? Do you rely on friends, family, and strangers? Who? The only person you can rely on is yourself. No one can tell you how to live your life happily; no one knows what you want, what you need. No one can really tell what you completely giving yourself up is except for you. That is where you rely on something more powerful than anyone or anything you can imagine. That is when you rely on faith, and love. Faith - belief that is not based on proof. There is no way to know for certain what you believe in other than faith. If you think you are doing the right thing, fuck everyone else. Do it! Make yourself happy because only when you are happy can those around you be truly happy.
Love stems from happiness but also leads to it. Some say you are not truly happy until you have love, some say you can not truly love until you are happy yourself. I think it is a combination of both. I think that in order to truly be happy you have to learn to love and in order to love you have to do what truly makes you happy. You have to learn to love someone or something that you can devote yourself fully to. Something that requires all of your being to survive and get through the next day because without that, how can you say you are truly happy, or in love... you can't.