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i haven't posted since pre-college. so blah blah lots of things have happened. but mainly right now i feel bad and there's no one for me to bother so for old times sake i find myself typing on the lj. what hurt most about today is that abby called me crazy and meant it. all i do is pick fights with people b/c thats the only way i feel like i can get a response from them. which is untrue, hence the word "feel" in the previous sentence. i try really hard to stay positive but then i get distracted which means i get angry at something. rage is so unattractive. i guess i'll keep at it. I'm planning on jogging in the mornings before work aka before its hot. i hate the heat, i hate moving in the heat. so hopefully i exhibit some follow-through on that initiative and that helps even my emotions out and i become more zen-like and calm. or at least rational. let's aim for rational this summer.