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I feel like life is a endless spiral of stupid motions lately.
Last weekend, I was in an amazing place. Excited about the wedding, everything is falling into place.
This week, I'm nauseous.
I went off on the stupid bitch at work that hasn't support me, or my engagment from day one. Got written up, fine whatever, if thats what it takes to let me say EVERYTHING i have ever wanted to say to her, fine, write me the fuck up.
But now, the STUPID bitch is quitting. and everyone is blaming me.
This women in 53 god-damned years ago, starting shit with a 25 year old.
EVERYONE at work knows, EVERYTHING I said was true. She ALWAYS talks shit about me, and my wedding, and then she plays the fucking victim infront of the bosses at work, says "how hurt" she was that she didn't get a save the date to my wedding. FUCK YOU BITCH.
I'm ready to throw in the towel on anyone from work coming to my wedding, and I think that would make things alot better. Less drama, and less money. However, my work environment would be shitty. Everyone is already hostile around me, ALL THE TIME, so this would only make it worse.
All I want to do is get a new job, and move on with my life. Get excited for the day I marry my best friend.
We have one car, so i'm basically stuck.
I really think I need to start back on medication. My side hurts more then ever. I have a headache constantly. I haven't lost a pound, and I think its because of stress. All I want to do is sleep. I really thought I was at a better place in my life, and have been off medication since OCT 2009. I don't want to go back on it, but if its going to help...whatever.
I sat there watching "Rob the Web Guy"'s wedding tonight. Thinking in my head...he or his wife Chelsea, has nothing but amazing people who support them and their marriage...why can't it be the same for me? what the hell did I do to deserve this?
If i didn't have over 9000 wrapped up in this wedding already, im sure we'd elope.
Oh...not to mention, My brother decides to get a brain tumor. Has a seizure at work, gets a CT, has a brain tumor, then gets sent for more test, and walks out the freaking hospital because he waited to long.
To add another thing onto the list, he will no longer talk to me. I have no idea what the fuck is going on with him.
Last weekend, I was in an amazing place. Excited about the wedding, everything is falling into place.
This week, I'm nauseous.
I went off on the stupid bitch at work that hasn't support me, or my engagment from day one. Got written up, fine whatever, if thats what it takes to let me say EVERYTHING i have ever wanted to say to her, fine, write me the fuck up.
But now, the STUPID bitch is quitting. and everyone is blaming me.
This women in 53 god-damned years ago, starting shit with a 25 year old.
EVERYONE at work knows, EVERYTHING I said was true. She ALWAYS talks shit about me, and my wedding, and then she plays the fucking victim infront of the bosses at work, says "how hurt" she was that she didn't get a save the date to my wedding. FUCK YOU BITCH.
I'm ready to throw in the towel on anyone from work coming to my wedding, and I think that would make things alot better. Less drama, and less money. However, my work environment would be shitty. Everyone is already hostile around me, ALL THE TIME, so this would only make it worse.
All I want to do is get a new job, and move on with my life. Get excited for the day I marry my best friend.
We have one car, so i'm basically stuck.
I really think I need to start back on medication. My side hurts more then ever. I have a headache constantly. I haven't lost a pound, and I think its because of stress. All I want to do is sleep. I really thought I was at a better place in my life, and have been off medication since OCT 2009. I don't want to go back on it, but if its going to help...whatever.
I sat there watching "Rob the Web Guy"'s wedding tonight. Thinking in my head...he or his wife Chelsea, has nothing but amazing people who support them and their marriage...why can't it be the same for me? what the hell did I do to deserve this?
If i didn't have over 9000 wrapped up in this wedding already, im sure we'd elope.
Oh...not to mention, My brother decides to get a brain tumor. Has a seizure at work, gets a CT, has a brain tumor, then gets sent for more test, and walks out the freaking hospital because he waited to long.
To add another thing onto the list, he will no longer talk to me. I have no idea what the fuck is going on with him.