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'most people's lives pass them by, while they are making their master plan' i dont know what it is about this quote that feels so profound to me. i am, once again in a deep contemplative mood, but this time round it hasn't made me depressed, i finally feel great, but not 'happy-great', jst great, i feel content, and safe, in the knowledge that i am but a speck, a speck that will do no real harm, because no real harm can ever be done. i know that i need no-one, i jst want them. i know i do not need money, i jst want it, for 'money is fake'. i do not need anything, i merely want for it. all in all i am very happy, but i also feel lacking. i have a gaping hole, i feel thristy and hungry, yet food and drink does not help, when i sleep it is still there, when i awake, i can feel it sitting in my stomach, a hole that grows by the day, it expands when i am off guard, it is also a hole that is filled with something sinister, and benevolent, and that scares me a little, and the bigger the hole gets, the louder the voices become, more arrive every night, talking, whispering, keeping me awake, yet always sleeping themselves, able to continue until i cant go on anymore. they can whisper louder than i can shout, and their conversations always beat the music i play. again, this scares me, but wot can i do? as long as i know i cannot do anything to stop them, i will not be bothered by them, for i am me, and me is content.
back to business. i seen some fecking awesome films recently. i recommend 'ong-bak', its a thai film, i wont tell you wot its about, but the guy in it is a legend at muay thai, and there are, literally, no strings attached in this film, jst generally awesome, some of the moves are out of this world. i also watche the truman show last thursday, i love that film, it has the coolest score of any film, i mean one that works with the film, but is meaningless when not in context. i also watched Blow, again, another wicked film, another one that warns you not to feck ur life up, and tells you wot is truly important, and how not to get rid of it. i know, 'wot a quick round up' but that is all i will say. i did have a gd time at cassio today, but i also broke my detox after only 6 days, lol, oh well...
....what is the point in life, unless you live it to the fullest?
back to business. i seen some fecking awesome films recently. i recommend 'ong-bak', its a thai film, i wont tell you wot its about, but the guy in it is a legend at muay thai, and there are, literally, no strings attached in this film, jst generally awesome, some of the moves are out of this world. i also watche the truman show last thursday, i love that film, it has the coolest score of any film, i mean one that works with the film, but is meaningless when not in context. i also watched Blow, again, another wicked film, another one that warns you not to feck ur life up, and tells you wot is truly important, and how not to get rid of it. i know, 'wot a quick round up' but that is all i will say. i did have a gd time at cassio today, but i also broke my detox after only 6 days, lol, oh well...
....what is the point in life, unless you live it to the fullest?