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Had a "family blow up" tonight. I didn't like them when I was a kid, I don't like them now. As "in tune" as my mom may or may not be with her own demolished emotional state, she is even less in tune with the state of others around her. Spent an hour outside with Matthew calming him down and trying to explain things to him, and he doesn't understand that he's the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back. In this case, a few straws. He wrote a shit book report over a book he never finished, and which he left lying about to get lost by someone (probably myself) while cleaning up the numerous messes both he and Mom make on a regular basis. I stepped outside for a smoke while they were in a mild argument, and the moment I light up I can hear the shouting from outside, and it only gets worse from there.
Now Mom is walking around avoiding eye contact and scowling continuously, and Matt is trying to conceal the fact that he was crying for a good while. She's going to bed, which probably means crying and feeling like she is a bad parent, and Matt is re-doing a book report in the corner of my room over the first two Peacemaker manga that I made him read while we were at the airport in St. Louis. To be fair, they contain a fair amount of reasonably true historical data on actual people present at the Ikeda Inn incident towards the end of the civil war that led Japan out of the Shogunate (Bakumatsu?).
I thought, for a while, that college would keep me outta situations like these. Revisiting all of the John-Mom-Dad meltdowns is never pleasing.
Now Mom is walking around avoiding eye contact and scowling continuously, and Matt is trying to conceal the fact that he was crying for a good while. She's going to bed, which probably means crying and feeling like she is a bad parent, and Matt is re-doing a book report in the corner of my room over the first two Peacemaker manga that I made him read while we were at the airport in St. Louis. To be fair, they contain a fair amount of reasonably true historical data on actual people present at the Ikeda Inn incident towards the end of the civil war that led Japan out of the Shogunate (Bakumatsu?).
I thought, for a while, that college would keep me outta situations like these. Revisiting all of the John-Mom-Dad meltdowns is never pleasing.